Posted 8/30/2010 12:18 PM (GMT -7)
Hi damgalnuna, I'm sorry to hear you're having so much pain. I found myself in that position at work too...it was a huge struggle every day to keep going, especially when my pain was coupled by severe lack of energy, scattered brain and short term memory loss...I just wasn't on the ball anymore in a highly stressful role. I really love(d) my job so it was hard to consider going on disability. I ended up taking the disability option when I just couldn't function anymore. My boss and our HR team were fabulous, helping me to get the paperwork done quickly and encouraging me to really take the time to rest and try and get better. My job had recently been eliminated at work due to an internal merger, but my boss told me when I was ready to come back, they would either create something for me or package me out.
My short term disability has turned into long term and I don't see an end date in sight. My insurance case manager is great and work is still very supportive of me, so there's no pressure to hurry back to work. I'm still trying to get an appointment with a surgeon re; my hips (see my other post called " A tiny step forward?" for more info on that), and I'm still dealing with medication issues, etc. I'm also still sleeping 2 or 3 times a day so not sure how that's going to work out (unless we all get an official afternoon nap, then milk and cookies like kindergarten!).
I think the most important thing I wanted to say to you damgalnuna is that if you do need to go on disability, don't feel like you've let someone done or that you've failed...it there when needed because of medical issues, and you have every right to use it. I know it's hard to admit we've reached that point where it's just too much to handle, but you must take care of yourself first.
I hope things go well for you and I wish you many days of comfort ahead.
DX: Fibro, Severe Myofascial Pain, Chronic Pelvic Pain, Surgical Adhesions, IBS, IC-PBS, Carpal Tunnel (both wrists), FAI, Reynauds, Opthalmic Migraines, Drug Related Hot Flashes, Physically Unable to Vomit due to Nissen Surgery, Extremely tiny and scarred veins (hard start for IV's)
Meds: Oxycontin, Tramacet, Cymbalta, Cesamet, Flexeril, Clonidine plus Vitamin D + Multi daily