I feel my life slipping away, and I'm terrified. There are so many things I can't do anymore. And the news this week that I now have a third herniated disc makes me worried that my lumbar spine is in serious trouble. I only have three levels not fused in my lumbar spine, and now they all have herniated discs! I also started feeling pins and needles and tingling in my arms and hands, which makes me worried that I'm having disc problems above my fusion as well. This is a new problem, and I haven't had any imaging done in this area, so it's entirely a guess.
Today has been an extremely high pain day. Tasks that should have taken me two hours total for my work took me ten hours to complete due to frequent breaks and difficulty in maintaining focus.
I don't feel like a good enough mom when I can't do things to take care of my kid. She's finally seeming to understand, but not always. Our house is a mess because I can't do chores anymore. Even just loading one load of laundry into the washer does me in.
I feel so helpless and hopeless. I've spent so much time crying this week. I have no idea what to do now. Everything's a mess, and there's no sign that it will get better any time soon. It's hard to stay positive under those circumstances.
Scoliosis fusion w/rods - 1992; herniated disc - 1996; partial removal of rods - 1997; microdiscectomy - 1997; sudden inc. in pain - 2008; tried the following non-pharm treatments: PT, aquatic therapy, TENS, acupuncture, piriformis injections, selective nerve root blocks; other: depression, anxiety, add; current meds: lyrica, baclofen, vicodin, topomax, tramadol, welbutrin, ativan, ritilin