This is my first post. I feel like I've searched everywhere to try to find anwers to my pain and am so happy to find a place where there are other people that understand what it is that I am going through. For a little background, here's my story:
I was in a car accident a year ago when a teenage girl blew threw an intersection and t-boned my car (she didn't even hit the brakes), then my car was pushed head on into a brick wall about 10 feet from the initial hit and the airbags deployed. Two very hard impacts. I couldn't move for about a week and was diagnosed with the generic "cervical strain" and told I could be in pain for 3-6 weeks. Before the accident, I was atheletic, had a promising career that I worked very hard at, and was looking forward to starting a family in the next year or two.
Today, I feel like I am a shadow of the person I once was and I've tried just about everything get better: pt, massage therapy, chiro, tens unit, accupuncture, meditation, meds(narcotics, analgesics, muscle relaxers), cortisone, and more recently a neurorotomy. It's not just the pain that I struggle with (it's a steady, never ending 5-9) but also the extreme fatigue and depression that goes along with it. I'm 30 years old and I feel like my life is over-no more brilliant career, no more social life, and no baby in my future. Everything I loved hurts-yoga, gardening, running, spending time with friends. I can't even hug my husband without feeling pain.
It's only been 2 1/2 weeks since my rfn, so I am hopeful that I may get some relief from that, but so far my pain level hasn't changed much. My job is up in the air and I've recently confessed to my bosses that I just can't keep going on like this anymore. I'm hoping they will tell me I can work part time, but my gut says I may end up loosing the job I worked so hard at and sacrificed so much to have. My neck just can't handle hours of working at a desk, I drive home every day with tears in my eyes. I feel like there is nothing left of me by the end of the day and if this is what life is going to be, I just can't keep going on. I've made steps to change things-I'm seeing a counselor and I've emotionally delt with the fact that I may be unemployed soon, but I can't say that I don't struggle all of the time. I'm having such a hard time with the greif and anger involved and I really feel like no one around me understands.