Good afternoon Damgal!
Oh Yes!....your plea sounds very familiar to most all members here.
Most all business worldwide, are based on production cost, and the ability to turn a profit after the investment of such. Each employee is considered an investment, weather they produce a product, or support personal who do.
While there are some laws that protect an employee from, ……..shall we say unfortunate health problems…..reality is, that after the requirements of the law have been met by the employer….it will then be up to the employer to determine if there is any value in retaining an employee who cannot produce the standards set by them. Most standards are set, bearing in mind that the employee is in good health, and can produce a profit for the company.
As, the economy has taken a hard hit the last few years, many of these companies have trimmed their workforce in order to maintain their profitability. Thus the gold standard is “Business is Business” This does not fare well with an employee who suffers health problems, but has some productivity left to offer, but not at their full potential as when they were hired.
I believe part of your fear, or the word you used was “scared”, is due to the well known facts stated above. You said “I’m not very productive” and that word is tied to value, not only to the company you work, for but in self worth as well.
At times, a company will actually look at your past work record. A weak past performance or absenteeism problems can come back and haunt a person.
Now, I will say that there are companies that are sympathetic, and will place an employee in a better suited ergonomic position, if available. In fact many companies hire disabled members of the community, and God Bless them for it!
So!...we can be an optimist here or a pessimist. I used to ride with a fellow shop employee, and he told me….” Michael!....you have to be the biggest Pessimist I know”…..I simply replied “ I doubt it!”J
Damgal, please keep your chin up, and look for every resource available to you at work, such as MsBunky suggest. Use whatever tool you can to make your job easier, weather it is a better chair to sit in, or a position change within the company.
If you have a good relationship with your boss, simply have a good chat with them, and explain your health problems. Also ask if there is anything you can do to remain a valued employee to the company, but in a position you can handle, even to the point of a flexible work schedule if possible.
Now for home life!.....I would give anything if there was a Chronic Pain counseling program for whole families, and even for Employers. Oh!.....not your average counselor program!.....one where you could select a #5 or a #7 pain shot that each non/understanding member of the family, could receive in their rear….and could experience pain for about a week!....oh!.....and then have them go to work…..come home and do chores……and then have a family member tell them that their just using CP for a crutch! (Yep!...my 16yr old Step daughter told me that! Grrrrrr! Grrrrr!)
This same step daughter, has decided to partake of an illegal drug on a daily basis!....she is so smart! Skipping school, sneaking out at night…..and hickys that looks like she was strangled!
Yes…we here at HW CP understand what you’re going through…..we will listen and learn together, but you will need to listen and learn with us as well.
Damgal, I can assure that you have worth in this life, maybe not the kind that you expect or an employer….but never tell yourself or get to the point that you believe you are worthless. If you post here, and encourage other members…you are contributing and that is worth something….and many will tell you that is worth a fortune.
One last thought! I’m very willing to bet that when your time here on earth is done, you will not be judged on your work performance as much as how you treated others. I have attended many funerals, and while work history was recited as a life accomplishment….what usually stands out the most, is ones character and how they handled themselves within society. It is not my place or any others, to judge your worth.
Bless you, and keep the struggle headed in a positive direction!
Post Edited (Screaming Eagle) : 9/16/2010 1:50:32 PM (GMT-6)