Thank you so much Mikel. I think of you often while I am filing pearls the last few days. I try hard to remain hopeful, it is just that these types of surgeries reach upwards of 200K +. I am not sure what I can do. I have done everything that has been asked of me to the very best of my ability. I am just plain out of options. Quite frankly the "genetic panel" broke us financially. 4,500 that the insurance company refuses to pay for. They decided that genetic panels are not needed to diagnose "Idiopathic". It is frustrating because I know there are at least 2 more tests my doctors would like to run to be absolutely sure, but the cost of each is 3,000 - 5,500.
Thanks so much Michael. I am not sure what a "biggreenegg" is but here is an easy one for every day use. The nice part is that when you are done, put it in refrigerator and the home made breads last 3 to 4 weeks. Let me know if you want tortilla recipe they last a month or more.
2 & 1/4 cup Milk
3 tablespoon Butter (Margarine okay too)
5 & 3/4 - 6 & 1/4 cup Flour
2 packages active Yeast
2 tablespoon Sugar
2 tablespoon Salt
Heat Milk and Butter. Mix 3 cups Flour, Yeast, Sugar, Salt and warmed Milk. Knead for a long time, slowly add in last of flour until is firm. Place dough ball in a greased bowl. Turn the ball around in it till ball is has thin layer of grease too. Sit it in a warm place to rise....bout an hour and half. Then cut it in half. Grease two bread pans, again turn once for thin layer of grease on bread too, let them rise again for an hour. Bake at 375 F for 10-15 mins then lower the heat to 350 F and cook for 30-45 mins.
**Tip, if bread is turning out too "hard" just take a long pan and add 2 - 3 cups of water and place it on rack below the bread in the oven.
p.s. you can add a cup of anything to this recipe. Can even add package of dry onion soup mix for Italian meals.
Gosh Suzanne. It is just that I do not have family. I have no one to go to for help. I have little ones. With my husband on 12 hr night shift he can't help either. I have to keep going. Most times I take my stool with me while I am cleaning or doing labor tasks. I have it sit a lot. Also, if things don't get done in the time slot, then they become a bigger problem the next day for me to do. It helps to have everything organized and easy to manage. I can do a little every day and still have things look nice.
Yes, I do want to give up sometimes. I found myself crying away last week through my chores. It is a struggle. It is overwhelming at times. What can I do? I have no one to go to for help. It is what it is. My pain is going to continue to get worse. My spine is going to continue to progress and make mobility difficult at best. Loving and caring for my family makes everything feel a little bit better. Story time at the end of the day is like reaching the finish line of a long marathon.
Thanks Chart. I think what they are trying to push for is because something is happening with my blood flow. My spinal cord is being compromised. My mobility is being slowly stripped away. There just isn't anything I can do. I hear that these things are important. I know why they ask at the beginning of each visit if I have "lost bladder or bowel function yet"... I do "get it", I do understand it is important. It is just that I have no money for it. Even with my dental re construction, for example. Just the cost of materials took me 3 months to save up for. They all donated some materials, all facilities and time. The lab donated everything, even the shading specialists. Still it nearly broke us. I know I am getting really bad. I just don't have any option. They all know I do everything by hand. They say things like "soon you will have no choice" all I can think is *geeze lady I don't have any choice now, forget choice in the future* These doctors have so much at their disposal, but the cost is so tremendous that still people suffer daily because they cannot afford access to any of these resources. Its a shame.
Thanks Pam *hugg* I was so bummed out I had to miss most of chat night last week. It is my "get away" with people who "know". It is the one time, each week I can finally just be "me" and I do not have to worry about hiding any part of myself. I ran into my daughter principal the other day and when I went to leave after she introduced me to the new assistant principal I heard her sniffling. I look back and she was crying. I gave her another big hugg. ... All the struggles out in the world, all the obstacles just seem to melt away at chat night. I sure do hope I can make it this week. I need some "me time" in the worst way.
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