It sounds like you are getting very depressed, depression is usually "part in parcel" with having chronic pain! I know this is easy to say, but you really should go and talk with your Doctor about this, maybe he/her could help you, by maybe starting you on a mild antidepressant or something like that, or maybe counseling. I know all to well how easy it is to just stay in bed and sleep to escape it all! But you know that is not the answer, it wasn't for me and probably it is not for you either! I know it is hard and difficult to be pro-active in our medical care, but if we don't take care of our selves, who pray tell who willl??? I know how hopeless you can feel after seeing some of these doctors! Allot of times I know I come away feeling belittled, berated and confused, and more than a little bit angry, and sad! I just want to "run away from it all! and say to heck with it! stay in bed and just sleep it all away!" But I know that is not the answer! and from your post it sounds like you know it is not the answer too! Yes you need to be more proactive, and talk with your Doctors, and get a new and different PM doctor if you need to, maybe find a counselor that you could go to, that might help you allot! I know when I was going through my divorce, I just felt over whelmed! mentally, physically and every other way! I talked to my pain doctor, and he got me a referral to a counselor that would take medicare and tricare, I had went and seen her for close to two years, at first weekly and then every two weeks and then monthly, I also got put on a very very low dose antidepressant, ( just enough to take the edge off, as like I told my counselor, I just felt like I wanted to cry all the time, I didn't, but..... I felt like I did!) You know it all helped me! along with all the support from the people here on this forum, I made it through a very very rough and rocky period in my life. But I had to make it happen! With the proper help and support you can too Elenor! You are not alone, you have all of us here to give you help and support!
I do wish YOU well!
Moderator Chronic Pain
After spending nearly 22 1/2 years in the USAF, I retired in Sept, 1991. I then went back to school and became a licensed RN in 1994, and I worked on Oncology and then a Med Surg Unit, I became disabled in late 1999 and was approved SSD in early 2002!-- DDD, With herniated Disk at T-12 and L4-5. C5-C6 ACDF in Sep 2009, C6-C7 ACDF in Mar 1985, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!) Medications:Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV I am White Beard with a White Beard!