I had a horrible childhood, but things got better in my teenage years. Honestly I really don't think I knew what I wanted to do until I was 19, which is when I wanted to join the military. In 1 more year at 20, I did join the military, for the simple reason that I wanted to be somebody important with an honorable career. I had worked dead end jobs and wanted to be someone that was respected. To add to this my grandfather served in World War 2, and I felt like joining kept his honor going, so there was some family influence involved. The military paved a great path of escape from my childhood, putting me in another part of the country....however, I couldn't escape that night terrors so that part followed me on my military travels. Overall the military taught me a lot: personal responsiblity, the decision making process, how to manage finaces, and that a good life can exist in whereever you call home. It sent me to college where i became smharter and earned an AA in general stupidology :P
It also served as the resume platform that got me my current job as a government contractor :)
I really wasn't the model soldier for the few years I was in the military. Actually even mid-swing I still hid behind the sham shield at times. I couldn't stand Sergeant E-5s, though by 2006 I was looking towards promotion to become an Sergeant just because people thought I "wasn't NCO material". Well in 2007, I got very serious about acting like a leader and it finally paid off as I did get promoted to Sergeant E-5, the very rank I used to despise! It was when I hit this rank that the Army life FINALLY made sense to me........atleast for a while. Earlier this year, things within the army started to become fuzzy and things began to seem nonsensical again, so 2 months ago I got out. I was already working as a full time government contractor and had switched over to National Guard (part time) so the military was becoming more of hinderance than anything else (especially due to the 12 hour shifts I work at my job).
MRI revealed a bulging disc w/gel lost at L5 and showed the bulge touching nerves, causing sciatica. Diagnosed w/ Arthritis which is responsible for joint inflamation pain. Treatment: Nucynta 50-150 mgs every 6 hours (schedule II narcotic, Mu Opoid agonist and NE reuptake inhibitor), Celebrex 100 mgs, Klonopin .5, Epidurals, Radio Freq nuerotomy (sept 8th, 2010)
Post Edited (grainofsalt) : 9/26/2010 10:34:32 AM (GMT-6)