stress is a huge motivating factor, and when coupled with pain......grrrrrrr grrrr grrrrrrr foot in mouth :x
Lately (not on this forum thankfully) ive been letting stress get the best of me due to my current situation, and ive been inclined to vocally tell others just exactly how I feel about certain things. !@#$%^&*() <----I would need far more symbols than these to cover up whats come out of my mouth lately when I'm out of ear shoot of the 3 kids I temporarily took custody of. They were literally dropped onto my doorstep courtesy of negligent family on my girlfriend's side and the from the lovely folks at child protective/social services who are ZERO help whatsoever. Well the father who recently came home from a deployment was sent a red cross message to come home and get custody of his children, but he doesn't care about his children so he sits in fort benning georgia. I just hope that when we meet face to face, I don't cause his jaw to be wired shut :x.....because those poor kids are so under developed and have severe behavioral issues, as the father decided to commit to a second deployment last year after just coming off of 1 because he didn't want to deal with the stress of taking care of the kids. The mother went insane and that is pretty much how they landed on my doorstep.
So yeah, I've had A LOT of stupid comments to say to people lately. I've put a lot of people in their place. Do I feel bad about it latter, yes. However my point is this spinal, when under a great deal of stress and pain, its human nature to lash out with comments from time to time. The hardest part is not letting the stress harden our heart permanently. You and I both realize our mistakes, and that right there is an important step :) If we talk with God, and admit our mistakes to each other, it keeps us human too. hehe
MRI revealed a bulging disc w/gel lost at L5 and showed the bulge touching nerves, causing sciatica. Diagnosed w/ Arthritis which is responsible for joint inflamation pain. Treatment: Nucynta 50-150 mgs every 6 hours (schedule II narcotic, Mu Opoid agonist and NE reuptake inhibitor), Celebrex 100 mgs, Klonopin .5, Epidurals, Radio Freq nuerotomy (sept 8th, 2010)