When I hear someone describe another person by the word driven, I think of all the success stories you hear about. Rags to riches stories or a tale of someone overcoming a major illness or injury to do something doctor's thought wouldn't be possible. I never thought that word could be applied to myself and all of us here on HW.
As some of you know, I became a Mary Kay consultant just a month ago and have been struggling in that as well as struggling through many obstacles from CP and the many other issues that come up emotionally as well as physically. The isolation I felt from being home all day was keeping me from where I wanted to be in life. So many of us struggle with that even if we don't suffer from an illness. Earlier this week I was inspired to begin a prayer shawl ministry at my church. It is crocheting or knitting a shawl while saying prayers for the person it will go to. They are given to people suffering loss of a loved one, illness, emotional issues, or just generally needing comfort and to feel that someone is caring for them. Our church will have a service to "bless" or infuse them with prayers from the whole congregation and possible a small blessing ceremony when it is given away. Hopefully with these two ways to touch other lives than my family, that feeling of isolation and unworthiness will disperse for now.
But on with my point. Today, someone I haven't been able to get along with very well told me I was driven. At first I felt insulted. It sounds like a bad thing coming from her, and I had never applied that adjective to myself before. It made me evaluate myself, and also to see all of the people who post on here in a very different light. We are all driven. It is what brought us to HW. Without the drive for knowledge, understanding, healing, and the loving connection that people who suffer in the same way you do, none of us would be here. The support we give each other is another form of this as well. We are all driven people. Some have a desire for healing, some for learning to cope, others just to hear a voice and not feel so alone, to provide comfort, to feel accepted or to feel valued as a person. There are those of us with a drive to accomplish as much as we could before our lives were changed by CP, and those of us whose drive is simply to be comfortable that day. Many of the people on here have a drive to care for their families and balance their physical needs as well.
Whatever the drive or desire may be, we are all reaching for common goals. We are all driven to be better people, or at least in a better place or frame of mind. I see it in every post showing caring, comfort, understanding, and offers of help. I see it in the prayers spoken, the laughs shared, the stories told. I think that when we lose that drive, we give in to CP and lose part of ourselves.
Sorry for rambling, just had to get that out.
The worst sin towards our fellow creatures is not to hate them, but to be indifferent to them. That's the essence of inhumanity. George Bernard Shaw
Pelvic adhesive disease, Irritable bowel syndrome, SI joint pain, 7 pelvic surgeries for pain, ovarian cysts, adhesions, and a kidney stone! Wait, future medial transcriptionist I must say ureteral calculus!