First I want to thank all the members that have shown whole hearted compassion, and for just being there for me. The first thing that stood out to me on this website; was that alot of the people that are regular members, refer to eachother as "family". So the first thing I would like to say is that, yes, I will be spending quite of bit of time on here. Not only getting support; but hopefully being able to help others in any way possible. And at the same time I hope that I myself, will get close to some of you, and become part of this wonderful, careing, & open family.
To answer some of the questions that have been asked. Yes. The better part of my problem with my back, is unfixable nerve damage that has already been done. As an almost unbelievable matter of fact. When I had switched dr.'s, because I had moved. The first thing he did, which I was suprised & grateful for, was contact any specialist I had seen; just to see what was being done and what, if anything, could be done for that specific problem. When he had called my wife and I back in to talk, even he was suprised, at what the neurologist and neurosurgeon had told him about my back. and I quote my doc. to my wife- " they told me to keep him doped & happy"! Like that one dont you.
Yes, also, to the question of if I have seen a urologist. other than the Doc. at the pain clinic, and my Doc., he has been the most helpful & open about whats actually going on with me. He walked into the room to, what I thought was to discuss options, he had my MRI films in his hand. Then he had asked me a couple of quick questions, then asked me to join him in his office. he then put my films up and pointed out a couple of things. Then he read me some notes from the neurosurgeon & neurologist. I told him that, yes, they did say that they figured that nothing could be done, and that was it! Then he proceded to tell me that since it was causing other health problems; that him and I could fill out some paperwork, and they would have to do sergery. BUT!!! He asked me if I liked being upright, on my feet, for the time being. Because he felt, from everything he had in front of him, that I would most likely be in a wheel chair, if I had the surgery. I didnt have to think very long or hard on that one. The doc. at the pain clinic pretty much said the same thing. I was in getting a round of shots, AGAIN, and the Doc. that gave me the first one said" there is another Doc. I would like you to meet, if thats ok with you." So he comes in, explains the're gonna try something else, something risky, if its ok with me. So, of course, I decide to do it! While we are in the middle of the procedure, he says " you have had several shots, havent you" ? " I am going to do this, but I'll tell you right now. I have looked & looked at your films. I'm looking at them right now, and I can tell you, none of this is going to do you any good". so after it turned out he was right; he wrote something up, and they havent bothered since.
And to answer the question about my liver. It is my fault. I drank ALOT, for alot of years. But unfortunately, also, I found something else out when i switched Docs. See the Dr. I have now is very stern; but at the same time he is knowledgable, thorough, and extremely caring.(in the past 5 yrs. he has called my wife, over a dozen times, on the weekend alone, to check on me for one reason or another! that doesnt even count the evenings hes called from his home) But anyway, the previous Dr. was giving me meds. that, as he put it, " any Dr. should have known not to give this to someone that has or had such a recent drinking problem". And on top of that, I was taking vicodin, which contains acetaminophen. Acetaminophen is not good for the liver, and they were giving it to me in extremely high doses. The funny thing is, that they had me doing (fasting) blood work every 30 days, mostly just to keep an eye on my liver #'s. Turns out that they were the reason it wasnt getting better very fast! My Dr. has it to where he is " somewhat comfortable", but as a matter of fact. I go for blood work and a check up this Thurs.. It is the first time in over 7 yrs. that I can say its been 4 months since I've had my blood drawn. So wish me luck!
I know this is extremely long, but as you'll find out, I can babble. I just wanted to thank you folks also for compassion, and for some, understanding about whats going on with my marrige. Especially White Beard. My wife also, in no way, shape, or form will she go to counseling. Unfortunately for us, it is a little too late for that, I think. It has been very, very rough the past several weeks. worse the past few days. Thats what has pushed me to the edge, and I knew I had to do something. I consider myself very fortunate to have found this place, this family of people. Who all either now or at some piont in time, before finding this place, felt so, so alone. I am SO glad that I finally got the guts to post on here Saturday "at wits end-". Because not only did I get things off my chest. I got not just support, but support from people who understand exactly what i'm going through. and I also wouldnt have had ANY place to go, after my rough morning, today.
So I beg you! If you are a guest, just reading, DONT! Please, for no one but yourself, POST! Do it just once. If you dont feel better after, what did it take, a little time?
Thank You All Again!, Brad