Hi to all who remember me. Haven't been around b/c very sick and in the "Bell Jar" (big ups for all who get that reference). Well, as some of you may remember I have serious bowel disease and in Sept. my stomach just started rejecting food and liquids, couldn't eat for two weeks so was hospitalized and now sitting here trying to recuperate but food still makes me sick--I absolutely have no appetite, no desire to eat, probably b/c anytime I put something in I have really bad pain and I'm totally turned off of even looking at food. Anyway, have had every test imaginable and GI cannot find a reason my stomach is rejecting nutrition, i.e. infection, obstruction, cancer, whatever.
Fifteen years, 15 yrs, 15 yrs and getting worse. I'm SICK of appointments, tests, meds, the well intentioned advice from people who think if I just tried this or that things would get better and I'm sick of my GI MD who is too proud to admit she just doesn't know, that science is not that advanced in this area--she actually suggested that depression may be the reason I'm not healing; yeah, I'm depressed, who wouldn't be, my life SUCKS right now! I have no energy, I take a shower I have to sit down for a half an hour to regain strength.
Oh, and weeks of intravenous pain meds I received in the hospital have been a joy to come off of--even though I take oral pain meds, not the same at all. Whew, thanks to anyone who reads this.