Well, I guess it was only a matter of time. At least I made it 30 days, but now I'm in horrible pain & lost my good insurance. The lousy policy I have right now doesn't cover much of anything. My back is hurting some, but my neck is driving me crazy. My stupid SCS is doing me exactly no good at all. The cold weather is making things worse & I found out the hard way that even though my muscles tense up in the cold, I cannot wear scarves or turtlenecks or anything that touches my neck without setting off nauseating waves of pain that continue until I take off the scarf or top. And there's still quite a bit of pain for several days after even if I only put it on for a short time.
Even drying my hair hurts. I got it cut off real short so that my hair doesn't touch the back of my neck anymore b/c even my own hair was causing me sharp pains. It felt like someone was poking me with a hundred sewing needles at once.
I'm thinking it must be nerve pain b/c the back of my neck is all red but I'm not sure about
that. What little money I had saved up to see my PM is gone b/c my car broke down a few days ago. So I fixed it & wouldn't you know it now something else, much more expensive, is wrong with it. Maybe I can get it fixed next week.
I got a holiday job that will keep me busy, busy, busy starting tomorrow & I don't even know how I will manage (at least I only have 3 hour shifts most days) b/c the pain is so bad even on meds. I just feel like everything is going wrong & I don't know how to turn things around.
Normally ice helps my neck, but it is just too dang cold to be applying ice and plus I can't stand the cold washcloth or bag of ice touching me. Heat makes it worse (it feels good when I have the heating pad on, but afterward it hurts like the dickens). I just hate the cold weather. Still, usually the cold weather reduces my pain so why is my stupid neck getting worse now?
Oh, I just am so unhappy right now. I think I'm gonna skip hanging out with my awful family on Thursday. I just can't deal with their negativity. But even if I take that day off to rest I am still really stressed about
work & looking for a real job & trying to get everything organized and together and so on. Part of me just wants to crawl under the covers & rest. But I know that will make my back weak & then it will be in pain too.
Other than heat or ice or prescript
ion cremes, does anyone have any ideas about
how to strengthen my neck muscles or get them to relax or stop hurting so much or whatever? I have a soft collar but I can't stand to wear it right now b/c I can't have anything touching my neck. I just want to cry. What do it need to do to get this pain to go away?