it is so nice to meet the both of you and thank you for taking the time to read my story. I am sorry for your pain as well but very grateful that we have found a place where we all can come together and find strength to overcome it.
Mindy, I really feel your fear about
scar tissue it is such an added burden but also I find it gets me up and pushing myself harder than if I didn't fear being mummified.
I'm so happy to hear you have such a wonderful family Mindy! I am very blessed with a husband like yours. He has been with me through a lot and knows how to move me while causing the least amount of pain, he wakes at the slightest movement from me to see if I'm hurting. We have a very close friend who has offered to be a surrogate for us and we were trying up until a few months before my last surgery and my hubby is really ready to start trying again but I am afraid and still finding things to buy, put aside, or worry about
. I am having a very hard time taking care of my daycare kiddos and would not have been able to keep them this long if my bf hadn't have moved it, but i know that is not a permenant situation, she is now seeing my nice brother in law (yea!!!) and will want a home of her own, complete with a new baby (hopefully so mine will have a cousin their age, lol, i got this all planned and still stalling) when he comes home for good from the army. I just know that some days (ok, most days right now) I'm really glad to see my daycare kiddos go home so I can just lay down and die, I don't know what I would do if I had one that didn't go home. but i'm still trying to figure it out and hope I get the courage to start trying again soon, until then i love these kiddos to death and all of my nieces, one brand new nephew, and friends kids.
next tuesday i go in to talk to my dr about
trying some new enzymes that will help with my fibro, scar tissue and tummy trouble as well as a experimental protein shot i want to start taking to see if i can't get off these pain meds. this is a brand new year for me and i'm going to do my best. i worked really really hard and finally got a break and into a farm house so we have a big place to play and grow. we are starting a community garden here to help our family, friends and daycare parents and i'm going to have a canning circle to teach everyone how to can for home use so we all can be as healthy as we can. I am negotiating with my hubby for llamas and chickens as well, lol. chickens for eggs and meat. llamas for protecting our property from wild animals and also i want to train them to pull a cart and help me by either carrying stuff I can't or helping me move about
the property when i'm not doing so good. we got a dog that we were going to train but bless his heart right after we got him we went into the ER the same day and had our surgeries very close together. it took me awhile to figure out what was wrong with him and get him back on track but he is now on my diet and takes a lot of my supplements to keep him going. definitely my dog, lol. but he will never be healthy enough for a work dog and as long as his life is happy we will fight together.
Best of luck to both of you and I look forward to getting to know everyone better along our journeys!
Make me strong in spirit
Courageous in action
Gentle of heart
Let me act in wisdom
Conquer my fear and doubt
Discover my own hidden gifts
Meet others with compassion
Be a source of healing energies
And face each day with hope and joy
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