Hello, I hope this is the place, I just need to vent a little....and maybe get some feedback
I have suffered with Arthritis since the age of 13, at 16 I fell and damaged my lower spine which has progressively turned to chronic pain in my Lower back and for the past 4 years suffered with Siatica down my right leg.........Recently, approx. 6mths, I have had surgery to remove a disc herniation (L5), with not too high of hopes, and a few weeks of physiotherapy I actually started to believe it was going to be better. Guess I was wrong.
The pain is always there, it had been relieved a little, but now it seems to be coming up in full force again, all I got out of the surgery was about 2months of sporadic releif, most days for that time the pain would be about 5-6, now it is back to it normal 9-10!
I have been working for about 2months for my sister, nothing major, just helping out at her restaurant/diner....doing what I can to make some money, but for the past 2weeks things are just getting so bad, I can barely walk again, so now I leave her stuck without the extra help, and I'm stuck being broke (which isn't fun when you have to be on meds)
Went to see my family doctor today, who prescribed some more meds, told me to keep up with the stretches, go back and see her in a month, and we'll see about starting LTD (long term Disability)....which *as she stated* will probably get rejected the first time, so who knows when and if that will ever begin!
I have been crying pretty much for the past week, due to the pain, being depressed, isolated, feeling like I'll never get better, thinking nobody understands what I am going through, and angry all at the same time... my brain is tired....
Oh and the irony of it all, I have joined a group for Chronic Pain sufferers *sp*, which is held every tuesday for 6 weeks.... today is tuesday, my pain is so bad I can't get out of bed! *sigh*
thanks for listening, kelli