Hi zabumafu. I'm sorry you're having to deal with all this. Not knowing what's going on is hard. And so is being prevented from doing the things you love and have done in the past.
I of course don't know what your doctor might be thinking. I can tell you that I've been to PT at least a half dozen times over the years, often with little to no effect. I think I was sent so many times because it was a safe treatment to try before the doctors had a strong idea of what was wrong. Maybe yours is something similar. But I would definitely recommend that you talk to your doctor about
it. Especially since your last set didn't work out so well. I'd hate to think you'd gone through more pain just for lack of asking.
I may not be 24 anymore, but I wouldn't call myself old, I haven't even broken 30 yet
. And I am a guy. I hurt myself just shortly after my 18th birthday. In fact it was on a birthday trip specifically given to me for making some healthy choices. How's that for irony...
I can empathize with the difficulty of hiding pain. It's a subject I've been dealing with recently in my own life when I found myself unable to do so around my colleagues and friends for a while. I cannot say I've found an answer to it, although the responses I have received here have been more helpful than I could have imagined. The best I can say is that you are an extremely strong person. I can tell from having read your posts. Understand though that no one can ever fault you for showing your pain. Only you have experienced it and only you can know it's intensity and effect.
Everyone on these forums has been extremely helpful and caring to me and I feel quite certain they will extend the same help to you. In the short time I've been here I've found that age or gender or even specific condition has mattered little in people's ability to understand and relate to the effects CP can have on a person's life. That said, I understand the desire to be able to identify with someone as close to your own situation as possible. Searches for that is what eventually lead me here. If I can ever be of help or just listen to something you need to share, do not hesitate to contact me.