Good morning *warm hugg* I am so sorry you are in so much pain. I have to admit that it was hard to read about you when you first came. You have been through so much. It is when I meet people like you that I often wonder "How does she do that? How can she stay so strong?" Its been really nice getting to know you in chat as well.
I am sorry you were treated so badly in another online community. I really wish I could make them leave you alone. Someone told me just yesterday "People will say and do things online that they would never do in person.". I think that is true. Forum bullying is so common place and very sad. Sometimes, for whatever reason, two people just don't see eye to eye. Then, for whatever reason, other friends will follow suit and "gang-up". In the end all you can do is be true to yourself. Let your light shine out-word, not in-word. Don't let the anger and hatred get to you. You are so much stronger than that. The more I get to know you, the more I have come to realize you are a fighter.
I hope you are able to get you pain down, even if only for small amounts of time. You must be exhausted. Please know you are in our hearts.