What a horrible last 24 hours!!!! 1st of all the lady at the front desk was like complaining and complaining to her co-worker (very loudly) about
But then, when I meet the dr, boy was he wierd! A quack really. He sat down with his little laptop and told me to "start from the beginning." Meanwhile, interrupting me and giving me his viewpoint and 2 cents into my what I should do with my personal life. I appreciated it at first, but.....after a while of him interrupting me and not hearing the whole story yet coming to judgments on his own, I started getting a little suspicious. He didn't even let me tell him everything I was CURRENTLY TAKING (and I tried 3 times to interject it).
He then, after about
an hour of this strange interview, got up and immediately started telling me of a drug they started using over in London (he's British...or English....or one of those - he has a thick accent). Subutex - the "cousin" of suboxone. He rambled (he rambled regularly) about
how yes even though it's "used" for people to come off addictions to opiates, it also has an "opiate-like" quality given in a fraction of the dose for people NOT taking opiates (which I don't).
He then proceeded to get a 2mg tablet from his cupboard (about
the size of a small woman's tip of her pinky) and cut it down so that he could get an 1/8th of a dose (basically crumbs). He had me put it under my tongue and let it dissolve. He told me to stop taking my tramadol, wrote me a rx for 5 more 2mg tablets and sent me on my way telling me to call him in a couple hours to see how I feel.
I felt nothing for a couple hours until I headed off to work....I started feeling tingly....when I got to work it was full blown: dizzy, running into walls when I walk, un-balanced. Unable to read, let alone look at my computer. I felt faint and nauseous....kinda like drunk with a horrible case of sea sickness. It was absolutely torturous! I immediately called his office and told the receptionist that it was an emergency that he call me right away! He did call back about
20 minutes later and was actually "excited" that this was happening cuz it "proved" his theory: that this stuff is THAT strong and even crumbs were too much!
He then started to "think"..... of something he could prescribe to help me. He asked me if I had any Tylenol #3's on me (I mean, does one just carry Tylenol #3's around with them without a script
, what kind of ? was that?!?!?!) I said, uh, no! He said ok, I'm going to call you in a patch for "sea sickness" that you can put behind your ear that will ward off the nausea & dizziness.
I had to have my husband go get it, cuz I was in NO state to drive! But I work at a chiropractic office so the chiro did some work on my and had me lay down for about
45 minutes and I did feel a little better and was able to get thru the day without the patch (when I have a bad reaction to a drug like that, I "FREEZE" and don't want to take ANYTHING, no matter if it's over the counter or what! I guess I just want the stuff OUT of my system and then I'll go from there.
So, the dr told me to take just like a fingertip powder of the subutex the next day (today). He said just break it all up and make it a powder and lick you finger, dab it in the powder and that'll be my "dose." Well, with the suffering and "hell" I just went thru I wanted NOTHING to do with the subutex. I'm back on my regime today: tramadol, gabapentin, & xanax....and slowly slowly slowly feeling better.....
I'm DONE! I'm done with these dr's that wanna "try out" things and try this or that. I'm DONE with dr's that don't listen and unvalidate my personal experience of 15+ years with meds. From now on, I will face this thing head-on. I will simply walk into the dr's office and if I even sense a little resistance or wierdness or unvalidating my experience, I'm turning around and walking out, period.
Anyway, thanks for listening, I could use some encouragment, I'm sad.