Thanks for all the responses.
I can get my husband to go to the library for me if I ask. He and my daughter are very helpful when I need. She is 17. I have been sick her whole life which makes me sad cuz she doesn't know what it is like to have her mom feeling great like other moms. She has had to help take care of me during down times and it just bugs me.
I live day to day, sometimes it gets frustrating. I do ok, but sometimes I have a breakdown knowing that more than likely, i will never be able to cook family dinners, go shopping with my kid, visit places around the US that I always wanted to see and I can't visit my parents back home 2,000 miles away. They are in their 70s and I worry I will never see them before they die.
It's frustrating, been 6 yrs now trying to find out what's wrong. I just hope somebody finds something soon.
God bless you all and have a
smurfy day lol :)