Thank you for the kind words... and, Suzane, for posting. Today's the first time I've read the board in many days - that's not like me at all!!
I'm just in the midst of a bad flare. It will pass, I know. But it's hanging on longer than usual this time. And it's depressing just having life pass by while my body won't do what it needs to do. I have so much to do.... and I don't do well when all I can do is lay down (because that's all I can physically can do) and then my mind runs and runs.
My cardio switched up my BP meds... maybe that will help. I'm on some new progesterone cream.... maybe that will help. Or maybe I just gotta hang in here and pray it passes soon.
My main goal is to stay out of the hospital. When I've been this bad before - I somehow end up hospitalized....I go in, thinking it will be for a day or two - and I've stayed for two weeks up to 30 days. So, this will be my last resort!! I've had to go to ER 3x for fluids and meds.... but, again, as long as I am not admitted.... I'll be ok.
Somehow, God provides on a daily basis. I'm horrible and stubborn at asking for help.... but I'm getting better. I've got wonderful friends that try to help me out w/ the boys - taking them swimming, etc. I've got several pre-teen/teen girls that are helping me (like a mother's helper thing)..... each day - when I find myself in tears on how to make it all work - it usually works out. Not always :) and it's not always easy.... but we are managing.
Anyway, to anyone else that is struggling w/ health, depression, pain, etc.... please know I care, and I understand how hard it can be. I wish I could take it away for all of us.
I'll be back to posting more as I gain more energy. I love you all.... think about you often.... and wish you all the very best.