Thank you Kathy... And yes, the surgeon I saw (as well as another doctor I saw for a second opinion) suggested surgery, but, as of right now, I'm refusing to get it done! I don't know ANYBODY that had positive results from the surgery I'd require. Plus, I'd be more stiff, and in more pain then I am now. I am able to get stronger meds, but I'm afraid of the addiction that comes along with the narcotics because my body is already physically dependent on the hydrocodone. Its a vicious cycle. If its not one problem, its another. I've delt with the scoliosis since birth, and over time, its continued to progress and cause more problems. I was unaware of the 2 vertebrae being fused together until today. The doctor I met today is very good at what he does. I forgot to bring my xrays and MRI discs and reports that I have, but, I had a pic of my xray on my blackberry, and just by looking at that, and zooming in, he could without a doubt tell the measurements and clearly see the fusion. Its that serious. I wish I was able to post a picture on here for u all to see.
At this point, I feel lost and out of options because nothing seems to help. I know, no matter what I do, nothing will ever take the pain away... But I'd at least like something to help me have a better quality of life! I'm only 25 years old, I shouldn't be dealing with this at such a young age. And to top it off, I have 2 young children (6 and 4), plus 2 step children (8 and 11). Even if I wanted to get the surgery, I'd be depriving my kids of all the little things, like things as simple as getting on the floor to play a board game (which is already very difficult for me to do.
I'm also bi polar, and for the most part I have it under control with medication and weekly therapy. But when u add my depression and anxiety/panic disorder, PTSD, epilepsy... And the list goes on... I feel like its taking over my life at times. I have a minimum of 1 doctor appointment every week, and group therapy.
I need a vacation, a break, a spa day... Something! But, I just can't do it right now.
Bi Polar 1
Anxiety/ Panic disorder
Major depressive disorder
Severe Scoliosis/ Degenerative disc disorder/ Arthritis/ 45 degree curvature of the spine, and 2 of my vertebrae are fused together.
Lamictal 300mg daily
Seroquel 300mg daily
Klonopin 0.5mg as needed
Xanax 1mg as needed
Vicodine 750mg as needed
Norco 10/325. 3 times per day