Hello Zabumafu, I am nini53/Kathy, I am sorry you are so distressed, believe me everyone on this forum has gone through, although not the same, but still the same. In otherwords we are all cp patients and had to begin somewhere.
I am hopeful that your youth will allow you to heal and hopefully get at least most of your life you had before back. Nobodys knows. I am 12 years into disability, and first injured my back July 17, 1989. That I remember that day always is no surprise to me. Although at the time in the er, it was called a pulled muscle. I dont even think I was incorrectly diagnosed. I had to work being a single parent to 2 elem school girls. By December 1998, I could no longer work. I applied for disability and with the help of a wonderful lawyer won.
What I can never win back, is the life I had prior to my injury. After about 2 years under the covers, I decided to get up and rearrange my life as it is. This has not been easy, but it can be done.
I do hate to sound like its so simple, but not unlike NA and AA, the word is one day at a time. I would however rethink the no pain meds issue. Try to make sure you are not punishing yourself for something that is not your fault, something you did not ask for. Who would?
So good luck to you, and take care of yourself
degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, neuropathy, lumbar laminectomy july 1998 no help, rechargeable neurostimulator unit low right back w/lead wires to left side and right leg unit not working just sitting there.i am 57 years young in may will turn 58. i have 2 grown daughters, 25 and 29. i have 2 grandchildren, 9 year old grandaughter and 5 yr. old grandson