Typpos, girl please, never say your sorry about something that is not your problem. I am so sorry you are going thru so much, your plate is full and then some.
I am Kathy/nini i53 by the way, I have been on since March of 2011 so I dont know you but still can have a lot of empathy for you. Its awful to sit there and be feel helpless, I know from experience. In 1996, my father was admitted to the hospital, he is retired military, so of course he went to a military hospital. My dad had a stroke back in 1984 and had been partially paralized since that time. This visit was supposed to be to find out what was going on with his feet. They had been swollen and red, then black for awhile, it was the winter of 1996 and we had a blizzard, so he was postponed from his appt. for about 4 weeks. When we finally got him there, he asked me to sign a DNR, which I did and promised him I would not allow him to be kept alive artifically. Of course my mother signed one also, which of course made mine useless. They ended up butchering him, I will never forget the look on his face, about 5 days later, when they had removed his leg, and he still was very ill.
He looked like I had totally betrayed him. It was my mother of course, every time it came to let him go, she dropped the ball. I wish I could say it was because she loved him so much she couldnt stand to let him go. But that would be a lie. Anyway I will not take any more space up to go into my disfunctional family.
Again so sorry for what you are going thru, but please try to take care of yourself, its important.
Take care, hope you are better soon,
degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, neuropathy, lumbar laminectomy july 1998 no help, rechargeable neurostimulator unit low right back w/lead wires to left side and right leg unit not working just sitting there.i am 57 years young in may will turn 58. i have 2 grown daughters, 25 and 29. i have 2 grandchildren, 9 year old grandaughter and 5 yr. old grandson