If you recall, back in the spring my PCP wanted me to go see a PMD because she was uncomfortable Rx'ing me any more pain meds than I was already on. (I was taking 6 mg of Dilaudid 3x day)
Th earliest I could get into a PMD was today and in the meantime my PCP changed her mind and started Rx'ing my Dilaudid 4x a day, which is all I had been asking for all along. I have been doing pretty good on that 4x/day which takes out almost all the gaps in pain coverage and what remains is bearable.
So anyway I have this 8 am appointment but they want me there by 7:30 to fill out some special forms and since this PMD is 60 miles away it means getting up and out the door really early. It also meant having to pull my kid out of school for the day since I didn't have anyone available to watch him and take him to school this morning and take him with me.
Well we get up there, on time, which was a miracle due to having a morning from hell starting with the alarm not going off. I fill out their paperwork, like I really needed to be up there 30 minutes early to fill out a 1 page questionnaire that was printed up in at least 18 pt text.
Anyway the doctor comes in and within 30 seconds I knew this visit was going to be a bunch of BS. She started firing off all the questions you would expect but she would start asking the next one before you got half way through answering the first one. During the interview she asked me 3 times everything I had tried and all the medications I had been on, and the real proof that she was not listening is when I told her that a few years ago I had been on morphine for around a year but had to come off of it because of it causing me severe memory problems and not 30 seconds later she suggests me stopping the dilaudid and taking morphine.
She says that the problems people have on morphine such as memory loss go away with time. Uhhh I was on it for a year and my memory problems didn't start for 6 months and got worse in the next 6 months.
Then she proceeds to ask me what kind of insurance I have and I told her Medicaid. She then starts talking about
all of these long acting pain meds. I told her that unless they are available in generic Medicaid will not approve them. The only long acting, name brand pain med they will approve now is Kadian, and that is morphine and I will NOT take morphine long term. She then starts in talking about
Exalgo and how "affordable" it is saying she has a Medicaid patient who is on it, right after I told her that if a medication is not covered by Medicaid and costs more than $5 per month I can't afford it.
The last part of the visit was her wondering why I was even sent there. I tried telling her (PMD) that when the appointment was first made my PCP was uncomfortable doing any kind of dose increase and wanted someone with more knowledge of pain meds to suggest a treatment plan and then the PCP would be willing to handle the monthly script
s, but since then my PCP had went ahead and upped the daily dose of the dilaudid and now I am thinking she just wanted a 2nd opinion that it was Ok at that level for the long term or if some other route might be better.
In the end I was sent on my way, on the same treatment program I am on now, except she wanted me to check into how much Exalgo would cost (no problem I already knew it is not covered) and that if my PCP wanted the PMD to take over the pain meds that I would have to go back up there and sign a drug contract (didn't matter that I already signed one at the PCP's office and both work for the same organization) and that I would have to make a monthly drive to get my script
s. Yeah like that is going to happen if it can be avoided with gas at $4 a gallon.
In the end this doctor is just like 90% of the rest of them out there. They don't listen and they have no concept of what life is like in the real world. They don't know what it is like living paycheck to paycheck anymore, they don't understand how much it really costs to make these 120 mile round trips or what it is like to be denied medications you need because of a bunch of bean counters.