Good morning Badheartdude!
I have to say that I agree with Jag and NiNi53....they really hit the nail on the head. Actually, all of the replies are excellant, and these members have a lot of experience. When I read your post, it really hit home with me, as I have been going through the very same thing. It wasn't untill my Dr put me on Oxycontin X3 did I quit suffering the same symptoms as you. There is nothing worse than being in moderate to severe pain and the beginings of WD's!
Not fun at all!
When your at the 2hr peak relief mark on your Oxycodone, I bet your outlook on life seems to be much better, ......then after that it is a down hill struggle....almost as if it is pulling you there as fast as it can. Our minds start to worry and stress out, and we wonder how bad it's going to get at the bottom. Actually, we know how bad it's going to get, because we have been there a million times, and know how bad it feels.
We all have been there, and it is a dark lonley place....with feelings of dispair. Then we reach for that one thing, the only thing we have to help us...a pain med!....and we wait knowing it will be another painfull lonley 30min or so. As relief gradually hits....life seems to look a whole lot better, and we look back at those feelings of dispair....and think how in the world did I get clear down there. So again!...yes we do understand the cycle of short acting IR meds. While it does help with the pain, it is only short lived, and we ride that roller coaster all day long and into the night.
This is the reason I firmly believe that if you are a long term chronic pain patient, then a person who is suffering like this should really be on ER med's, and the IR meds should be used for emergency pain above and beyond what the ER med's would normally take care of.
I wanted to mention "Methadone" as a possibility, since it is one of the cheapest long acting ER meds that I know of. It can be a bugger to get used to, and the same to get off of if needed, but many of our members have done very well on this med. Again, I'm not sure if you have tried it, or if you may have had problems with it if you did.
I recently started Cymbalta, and it has given me even more relief with the nerve damage, to the point I have been able to almost discontinue my BT med's. However, I have a bad habit of falling asleep early in the evenings, and have missed my 10:00pm Oxycontin med, and .......Boy Howdy!....I was in bad shape in the morning!!!
Many of us are dependent on our meds, so yes!.. this is very common. I and many here understand the loss of quality of life and the outlook can be very dim at times. Please don't give up! Continue to seek support here. We really do understand and sincerely care!
Keep plugging away at a solution with your DR...be open and honest with him, and share all of your problems. Let him know that you are going through WD's and still suffering. It has taken me two years to get my Dr to the point that he understood. I do have a good Dr, and he is compassionate, but he is not a push over by any means either.
I think some of the Drug companys have rebates that may help you with the cost as well, so ask about them on your next appointment.
Good luck, and let us know what else we can do for you, and again, please let us support you as much as you need it.
We too..have a grandson, and I love that little guy!
When grandpa gets home from work, he runs to me and lays his head on my shoulder for a bit....then points outside....where we play! Last Friday we introduced him to the waterhose, and before you know it....he was soaked from head to toe! What a blast they are! We spoil them rotten...them send them home till next weekend.
I read on another post that you have filed for SSDI. Hopefully you will be approved for this, and it will generate some income to help with the pain med purchase.
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Post Edited (Screaming Eagle) : 10/3/2011 10:15:13 AM (GMT-6)