I just wanted to thank you for the words of encouragement you and everyone else gave me. I feel so much better now that I posted that and realized how many people have the same worries as I have. I have been very blessed with the lack of side effects from my meds.
Back when this nightmare started I was given xanax for anxiety(sp), the xanax did not blend well with my pain meds at all. When I was taking them, I was going into nods (which is what people do on heroin) I would stop in mid sentence and my head would be almost in my lap. My children got so angry with me, they were on me 24-7 to not take it. I would argue and tell them I needed it and they should try to understand better. The truth was I had become completely addicted to the xanax. When I ran out, when I layed on the bed my body would jump in the air, I had no control over it. Finally I was given an ultimatum from my girls, stop or I would not be able to watch my grandchildren and they would have very little contact with me.
I stopped, I admitted to being addicted to them, and I promised to quit. That was over 6 years ago. I have not gone near them and never will again. I was given valium by my pm who I have been with for almost 3 years, 5mg when needed. I get 30 5mg every 2 months. I am not sure why, but I do not have any problems with the valium. Its totally different, I have conversations without nodding off, I can get the help I need from them, like not having muscle spasums(sp).
I asked my pm what the difference was, she told me that a 1mg xanax was more powerful than a 10mg valium. I believe her as I am having no bad reactions when I take them. I also do not take them every day. I do exactly as the bottle says.
I am sorry, I have rambled on again, when what I wanted to say was I think we have much in common, I enjoy your posts also, I have learned so much from this forum, I plead temporary insanity to thinking I did not belong. I have never felt so understood.
Ok, now that I have written a book, I will sign off. Thanks again, to you and everyone else, without your and everyones input, I dont know where I would be.
Take care, hope you are feeling good today,
degenerative disc disease, fibromyalgia, osteoarthritis, neuropathy, lumbar laminectomy july 1998 no help, rechargeable neurostimulator unit low right back w/lead wires to left side and right leg unit not working just sitting there.i am 57 years young in may will turn 58. i have 2 grown daughters, 25 and 29. i have 2 grandchildren, 9 year old grandaughter and 5 yr. old grandson