thank you Kathy,
after passing the 3 year mark recently in my Prostate Cancer battle, it's all kind of a blur to me. In the first 2 years, its was horrible, including 2 major operations, 6 lesser operations, 2 months of radiation treatments that were administered wrong and caused me intense damage and the beginning of the chronic pain that I still endure. I never feel sorry for myself, there are many so much worse off than myself.
i have a stubborn mindset, sometimes its a good thing, sometimes not, lol. but i refuse to let what is happening to me dictate how i feel about myself and life. this cancer is higly likely to take me out, there's nothing i can do about that part, but in the mean time, i am trying to take care of my wife and family, and to take time to enjoy a few things (that i am still capable of doing) and finding time to help others. the "helping other" part is the best medicine for what ails me.
I know all about pain, fear, and suffering, so it makes it easier for me to relate to others in pain and empathize with their ailments. I know some of you in this community have to fight the stigma of having friends, relatives, employers, and others not being able to really comprehend your own pain and suffering.
Some of this, unfortunatley is human nature, but some of it just plain old fashioned selfiishness in my opinion. You have to live with chronic pain, to really, really understand how it effects every aspect of your life.
Life certainly isn't all roses and sunshine (I wish), but there are good life lessons we all can learn when we live and exist in the darkness of severe pain, depression, and illnesses.
David in SC
Age: 58, 56 dx, PSA: 7/07 5.8, 10/08 16.3
3rd Biopsy: 9/08 7 of 7 Positive, 40-90%, Gleason 4+3
open RP: 11/08, on catheters for 101 days
Path Rpt: Gleason 3+4, pT2c, 42g, 20% cancer, 1 pos margin
Incont & ED: None
Post Surgery PSA: 2/09 .05,5/09 .1, 6/09 .11. 8/09 .16
Post SRT PSA: 1/10 .12, 4/8 .04, 8/6 .06, 2/11 1.24, 4/11 3.81, 6/11 5.8
Latest: 6 Corr Surgeries to Bladder Neck, SP Catheter since 10/1/9, SRT 39 Sess/72 gy ended 11/09, 21 Catheters, Ileal Conduit Surgery 9/10