Anyone who says the best things in life are free is full of baloney!
The struggle I am having with pain in the midst of the family issues, insurance paperwork and worry, bullying, trying to graduate from medical transcription school, and daily living will be worth it in the end. This is my constant reminder, that things that are worked for desperately can be as rewarding as those that are free. Who gets anything for free anymore really?
Christmas is a new worry for us. Money is so tight, but I worry more about being able to cook, make the cookies I want to make with my family, to get my crocheting done for the gifts, and I am set to graduate a couple of days before it as well. There is just too much going on for me to relax, and when I am trying to relax, I worry about how to get it all done. Without the help of my husband, sons, and friends since the surgery I would be lost. I know that many of you struggle with this too, and many of our older members have found some type of balance. It is so easy for me to slip out of that balance.
I am such a downer lately too. Depression is my worst enemy. I am experiencing anxiety and panic attacks again, which may be medication related or simply my anxiety issues rearing their heads again. That will have to wait a bit until the paperworks submitted for insurance are approved or denied. I am blessed to have a medication plan in action for this time.
Back to balance....I am seeing that just around the time when I find a balance for finances or physical issues, something else comes up and knocks me off balance. This happens to my friends who aren't dealing with CP. This just may be part of life that we have limited control over, balance. The only control I have is how I react to things anyway, so maybe I should handle balance that way as well.
I pray you all had a great Thanksgiving who celebrate, and any member who does not had simply low pain days. I will try to be less absent, but fear bringing my depression to share instead of good things.