I have been going through hell, that's the only way you can describe my life over the past few months.
The good: I have reached an agreement with the local Arts Council and will be opening a photography studio (VERY AFFORDABLE!) in our little downtown area in January. In addition, we have a non-profit organization that has been working hard on revitalizing downtown and I am now in all of their brochures and literature! 2012 will bring me a LOT of business. :)
The bad: I am still having a moderate amount of pain in the surgical area from August. It's pretty bad. But, there's nothing that can be done. I just deal with it like I deal with the lack of functioning in my hands now that the cold weather has struck.
The ugly: On the same day, 8 hours apart, 2 weeks ago my father and my grandmother both suffered strokes. Grandmom is doing fantastic, daddy isn't. I can't go into details or I'll just lose it. We have been told to make the most of our time with daddy before he gets to the point that he doesn't know us at all. I've already had to suffer him not knowing me for a little while. darn near ripped my heart out. A week and a day later, I am dead asleep at 7:30 a.m. when my phone starts ringing. It's my oldest son. They've been involved in an accident at the end of our road--he had just removed his safety belt to make sure his books were in the car and ended up being a projectile, slamming his head into his brother's and knocking him into the driver's window where the impact knocked out my youngest. The van was totalled. Thank God, though, that my boys are okay. The van was on it's last leg anyway--I had just replaced that one with a newer-to-me van. They say "it" comes in three's, there's my three, leave me alone now please. *sigh*
I had a PM appointment on Thursday. Due to the wreck, I was unable to make it and they worked me in on Friday. I completely melted down on my doc on Friday. I was in a huge amount of pain. My arms hurt so bad that driving was a huge chore for me. So, he grabbed the tissue, pulled a chair up to me, hugged my neck and we talked. God I love my doctor! He knew I'd throw a fit over adding meds...but he reminded me that when the cold is over with, we would be able to drop the new stuff. So, I am now on:
A.M. 20 mg Prozac, 15 mg Morphine Sulfate ER, Robaxin 750 mg.
NOON 20 mg Prozac, 750 mg Robaxin and if I am having any break through pain either 10/325 Percocet (up to 3xday) or 50 mg Demerol (up to 2xday).
P.M. 15 mg Morphine Sulfate ER, Robaxin 750 mg, 2mg Clonazepam
For the record: I hate the zombie state the morphine has me in.
That's the quick update on lil' old me. Trying to manage through this cold weather. I thank God daily for Thermacare patches!