I know we haven't spoken in quite some time, but I'm sure that you remember we suffered some of the same losses. Words can not express the torment you experience and how difficult it is to find peace when you are suffering so.
I can not say that I know now how you feel, because I was blessed with one child since my losses. They still never go away, but it did change my sadness. I wish this were the case for you, but sadly that did not occur.
You are a kind and loving person. You have a wonderful man who cares for you deeply and you are loved here. Your angels love you from Heaven.
Please do not think poorly of me, but I have found a strange and wonderful connection with my pomeranean. I needed her as much as she needed me and she has filled a void within my heart. She was not wanted and was unloved and I was able to give her that love. Perhaps finding someone or something to share your love will lessen the pain of your loss just a tiny bit. I do not say this to suggest you could ever love your child less, but that the heart heals by love....and I think you have a great deal to give
Peace be with you my friend.
TLIF L5-S1/failed, Pituatary disorder w/HGH deficiency, Fibro, Failed Bladder Surgery & Nissen, GERD, OCPD, GAD, MDD, CFS, TMJ, Migraines, HBP, Idiopatic Reactive Hypoglycemia w/Diabetic reaction to HGH, Bi-lateral CTS (surgery related trigger finger), Edema, Tarsal Tunnel Syndrome, Peripheral Neuropathy, Plantar Fascitis, Tibular Tendionitis, Adult Onset Flat Feet, Vision Issues & much more.....