Kay I am truely sorrry for your loss! I know the feeling well, as I have lost both my parents, they say time heals all wounds, well that is not exactly true, but....it does seem to ease the pain somewhat! Right now is a very tough time for you, the emptyness that you feel, I know seems overwhelming, so Please be gentle with yourself Kay!
I am enclosing a link to a post that I made here on the Chronic Pain forum back in 23 April 2009 scroll down to 2pm post and you will see two poems that I posted, they always brought me comfort, when I think about the loss of my parents. Maybe they will also help you in some way. Here is the link: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=16&m=1453098
I give you my Condolences.......Peace be with YOU
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After spending nearly 22 1/2 years in the USAF, I retired in Sept, 1991. I then went back to school and became a licensed RN in 1994, and I worked on Oncology and then a Med Surg Unit, I became disabled in late 1999 and was approved SSD in early 2002!-- DDD, With herniated Disk at T-12 and L4-5. C5-C6 ACDF in Sep 2009, C6-C7 ACDF in Mar 1985, Osteoarthritis, Ulcerative colitis, Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, Complex Sleep Apnea, and host of other things to spice up my life!(NOT!) Medications:Oxycontin, Percocet, Baclofen, Sulfasalazine, Metoprolol, Folic Acid, Supplemental O2 at 3lpm with VPAP Adapt SV I am White Beard with a White Beard!