Sorry for your loss Kay. Words cannot express the loss of somebody you are close too, especially a family member, and even more so, a parent.
I am enclosing a link to a post that I made here on the Chronic Pain forum back in 23 April 2009 scroll down to 2pm post and you will see two poems that I posted, they always brought me comfort, when I think about the loss of my parents. Maybe they will also help you in some way. Here is the link: https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=16&m=1453098
I give you my Condolences.......Peace be with YOU
I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my father in 1999 and the hurt isnt as bad but I still miss him.
I am praying that the lord will give you the strength to see you through the coming days.