Tina and Michael, you are right in so many ways. I am stuck in the moment and my anxiety is getting the better of me. My poor husband gets to listen to me cry.
Michael, i posted that we repaired the leak, and that God provided the money for the new roof. Now with the car, things are going to be dicey. We really need a new roof, but we also really need a car that runs.
We are getting help with food stamps, but I feel so guilty about
that. I hate going to the store and getting ugly looks, like we have done something wrong for needing help. People around us just don't understand what it is like to be in need a lot of the time. We are the trailer park stuck in an affluent area, and it just makes me so down to know that I am not out there working to make our life better.
I have to remember that a mom that has the energy to make dinner, organize, and love her family is more important than a mom who comes home too tired to do anything, and only makes a paycheck. The boys and my husband need me more than they need lots of money.
Need to find a way to stop the anxiety from overwhelming me. I am so tired.
Thank you for the help. And Tina, you are right. The person who does the talking has a lot of problems, and is never happy with anything.