From the bottom of my heart, thank you everyone for your kind words. I really don't know where to begin, or how much you really want to know - cause it's alot! The 'story' of what my family has been through over the past couple of years is one that if hadn't happened to me, I'm not quite sure I'd believe it! In fact, my entire life's story is kinda hard to believe, but I've lived it so I know it's true! If any of what I write this evening appears as 'babble', please excuse me - sleep is something I only have a vague memory of, and clear thought is a concept I'm just not capable of at the moment. So please bear with me. But I will try to make this as short as possible! In the past 3 years, Robert had a construction accident (fell through faulty scaffolding), was rear-ended while driving my mother's car (on Thanksgiving eve of 2010 - 2 hours before that, we were sitting on the curb outside of our home, with our kids, our 6 cats, and all of our belongings, having lost our home of 5 years), was hospitalized 6 times with pancreatitis, and then was diagnosed with inoperable liver cancer on Valentine's Day this year. The surgeons are saying they won't operate because the tumor is so deep within the liver that if they tried to remove it, he would most likely bleed to death on the table. At this point, they are saying that his only hope for survival is a liver transplant. We are going to the T.G.H. Liver Clinic next week to begin the testing process to see if he is a candidate for transplant. Their main concern is how close the tumor is to the portal vein. If there has been ANY infiltration of the tumor into the portal vein, the risk of the cancer spreading would be too high and they won't/can't risk 'wasting' a liver and he would not be a candidate. All of his other organs are healthy, there only appears to be one malignant tumor, and he hasn't drank or used any illicit drugs in over 7 years, so it would really stink if this one 'thing' prevented him from receiving a liver. Ok, besides all of that, on my birthday last year, my car was stolen and was found 2 weeks later - but only after a police chase and a crash that totaled my car! The piece of garbage (the only word that I can get away with using on here!) that was caught with my car was 19 years old (ironically, he and I share the same birthday-March 21st!) and was wanted for violating probation on aggravated battery against a child, domestic violence, and battery. He ended up getting a 6 year prison sentence. And finally, the 4 of us and 5 of our cats have been living with my mom since Thanksgiving 2010 - it's a 2 b/r condo and we are all losing our minds - some quicker than others! Oh, and I just lost my doctor of 9 years! He was my primary and also treated my CP. I have been trying for 3 weeks to find a new doctor, but here in good ol' FL, as soon as you say "chronic pain patient", the doctor treats you as if you had the plague or ebola!
I am sooooo sorry everyone - I've written WAY too much for one post - just haven't had anyone to tell all of this too, so you all became the unlucky recipients of my major vent. Please everyone, tell me how all of you are doing. For some reason, I've been thinking of Dani - how/where is she??
If you made it this far, thank you for 'listening' and please - have a peaceful day.
p.s. And I forgot to add that when we lost our home, we had to put EVERYTHING we owned in a storage unit. Several months later, the unit was auctioned because we had no way to pay for the unit. Robert couldn't work because of his injuries and I couldn't find work, even though I desperately tried (47 applications/resumes). I know some people may say they were just material things, but it was 48 years of my life in that storage room. All of my children's things - and for those of you who know my whole story, all of the things I had left of my 2 sons who were abducted in 1991. So it was SO much more than 'material stuff'. I can't even see the commercials for those stupid reality shows, Storage Wars and whatever that other one is - I actually start feeling physically sick when I see the previews.
Post Edited (Splashdancer) : 2/24/2012 9:55:47 PM (GMT-7)