I apologise as this is going to be long winded. I need some advice and support as I feel I am now depressing everyone around me with constant talk about my back this my back that!
Basically back in may last year I was at my fittest, I was playing rugby, doing Zumba, swimming, gym going and jogging. One day I was loading the dishwasher and my back went into spasm on the Right hand side stabbing pain immediately right of L1 and the one above, which spread around to my ribs at the front and down through my pelvis. I was off work for 6 weeks. By the end of that 6 weeks I finally got an appointment for Physio. I got to the point where all I had was this occasional pain into my pelvis. I went back to work on a busy medical assessment unit. Over the following 10 days my back got steadily worse again until finally I woke up one morning in agony. The muscle to the right of my spine (I think my QL) was in deep spasm and the vertebrae above L1 was stuck. I was stuck forwards and to the right the only way I could get any relief was by leaning Onto my right knee. Another 7 weeks off work later and regular Physio sessions and I felt I was able to go back to work on a gradual return. By now I was getting more and more anxious and low. I was still unable to exercise and was petrified that my back would spasm again, the pain was so unbearable!
I managed 4 months back at work, during which time I got a new job much less physically demanding and much more enjoyable. But it took anwhile to sort out the paperwork so I could start the new job. I was at this point able to run short distances and carry water onto the pitch for my old team mates. Two weeks before I was due to start my new job, I was still having Physio and he was about to refer me on to a consultant Physio. As I still had this niggly pain just right of my spine and the QL kept tightening up no matter what I did. He got another Physio to have a look at me. She
manipulated my spine by pushing it from the left side over to the right. Since then I have not known which way is up! I struggle to hold myself upright for long. I am incredibly anxious and now depressed. I have seen a chiropractor who says he is running out of ideas. Because while he can get me to a couple of days with minimal pain, it always comes back. I am now on cocodamol, naproxen, and amitriptyline. And I am at the end of my tether. I usedto be such a happy person, and now I am just miserable to be around. I cry all the time. It's horrible. Any ideas or help would be greatly appreciated.