Thanks, both of you. :)
I just took the first dose, so we'll see what happens.
I'm not sure why he didn't try the other narcotics, but I think it was a combination of hesitation and actual curiosity to see if the cymbalta might help me since lower level narcotics didn't. Sorta a matter of 'hey maybe this will work and he wont be addicted to narcos'.
I stressed to the PM doc that I am on Prozac, and Restoril, and Xanax, AND Tramadol, all of which have some effect upon chemicals and brain-y stuff. lol! So I did state that several times, because in the past--different doctor, a psychiatrist--put me on two anti depressants and I possibly went into serotonin syndrome and had to go to the ER.
PM doc acted like it would be fine. He didn't really mention the serotonin syndrome stuff, but he did say that if I had suicidal thoughts, etc, to stop the drug immediately and just let him know.. So he wants to see me in 2-3 weeks. Plus, he wants me to keep on my Tramadol and Naproxen, and all my other meds, so it isn't like I'm left with just the cymbalta for pain. I'm not very hopeful that it will help--but whatever, I'm up to try pretty much anything right now.
I don't know other pain doctors in my area who don't operate in the same building, so my options are very limited. And it isn't feasible for me to drive 3hours out of my way to a doctor when I need refills or check ups. (I live in the boondocks. My current PM doc is 1 1/2th away...so that is bad enough.)
:: sigh ::
I just get depressed and tired. I continually feel like the doctor doesn't grasp the severity of what is going on. When I mentioned that my surgeon is sort of contemplating suicide, the PM doc said he really is against surgery because it could cause more harm than good--which I agree with in my case--but he also said that it would be bad because if it isnt helpful I'd “miss out on all the things you can do, because you're so young.”
What things? I can't work, I can't drive, I can't even go to college anymore. I barely clean, and my head is so muddled from my depression/meds/and pain that I can't concentrate to do half the stuff I used to do. I consider this condition to have put the brakes on my life hardcore, and while I don't think that cutting myself
open and shoving rods up there is a cure-all, I also don't think that playing around with odd/low-dose medications for over an entire year 1/2 is really a feasible plan either. This is an every day thing for me. I'm not able to go to school on Monday and tough through it, and then have a good day on Tuesday. I feel like this all the time...but yeah. Sorry about
the rant, its just that sometimes I get so...tired about
this. I'm tired of having the pain, and I don't even expect it all to go away...just to be able to have a better day-to-day life coping with the pain.
So I will let you guys know if I get results-good or bad--from the cymbalta. If not, I may have to speak up a bit more at my next appointment. If I need to go back and ask about
trying a higher narcotic, then I will. I'll just remind him about
what he had said last time, or something, instead of asking, 'Hey can you give me ______', because I'm not a doctor and I don't wanna sound like I'm a drug-abuser/hunter.
Post Edited (misterkatamari) : 3/26/2012 9:48:08 PM (GMT-6)