I currently feel like I am literally dying and at age 18 with Crohns Disease and Ankylosing Spondylitis I have literally written essays to physicians explaining how incredibly frustrating it is. I called my doctor once and said "Is this what you guys do? Run away in fear of the DEA monkey's making me suffer for 3-4 years? You want me to hit the streets and buy the illegally diverted stuff? Well I can't because I don't think my issuance covers drug dealers". It took my primary a long time to realize what hell was. She came down with some type of RA and now understands the discomfort. Really, it seams like you have to feel the torture first...before I got sick and I saw my parents on those tiny amounts of Vicodin I always looked at it critically....now I get it after failing college classes I loved because I couldn't get out of bed or that I was in the ER..something has got to change thats for sure.
thanks for your response. And I try not to blame the doctors, I guess it's just frustration because I'm not trying to get high. I'm trying to maintain a normal lifestyle so I can do my homework, or get out of bed. I think I started to feel like those things were to much to ask for and that I'm just supposed to accept my condition. I stayed in that place for awhile but luckily got to the point where I got pissed off and unwilling to accept that. My main problem now is trying to convey this idea to my doctors. It's hard because I don't know how to ask without feeling guilty
I know exactly how that is. Try and type of something...I have had doctors read well thought out papers of mine and they get it. I think when they think of prescribing opioids they think too much about
broken bones and crying...that or fear of addicts and the DEA. Im not going to cry for the doctor..Im not going to put on some show..its just not me.
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