Exalgo is hydromorphone ER ... hydromorphoncontin is not avail in the US.
I know it's very hard, but I would try to not take things on such a personal level. These doctors have seen it all... and I think are hardened by much of that. Does it make their attitude right? Of course not. But it's a reality in the PM world.
Maybe you'll "cut me some slack" (lol - your words, lol)... as I, too, am a mom and this is really meant in a concerning way. But... when you say that the meds "lose their buzz" after while... I would just be really careful. You are very young... and it seems like you may be on this CP journey a long time. Just concern.
(What I'm about to say is to anyone of us in general, NOT to you).... We talk about addiction on this board and many of us defend that we taking everything 1000% "right". Addiction is NOT a bad thing (on a moral basis) and doesn't make someone a bad person. We are all taking strong narcotic medication - and I truly believe it "can happen to anyone".
Like I said, I'm NOT saying that applies to you at all. In my mid-20's, when I first started getting migraines, my doctor was loading me up on Vicodin - and I admit it gave me a sense of euphoria - in that I had super-energy and could accomplish absolutely anything. Looking back, I was very naive and I, while I don't think I was addicted per se, it was an unhealthy relationship w/ narcotics. I wasn't using them for the full intended purpose - frankly, I also liked how they made me feel.
My "punishment" (lol) to the above is... now, when I have really need medication over the last 8+ years... nothing works for me - at all.
I truly hope this new medication works for you. Please let us know how you are doing on it.... --Tina
Thanks for the post I really do appreciate it, it's the first time anyone has ever warned me in the least verbally assaulting way (lol)! I've thought about
the future and that's why I try to keep the doses as low as I can go as at this point the standard amount of Percocet they might give for say a broken bone does nothing which is extremely alarming....when I said I don't get a "buzz" I really meant that as a way of saying not chasing after anything, or hiding from emotions from all the stress...confronting stress is something that I take an active approach to because I see results right away....at this point however I can't approach much of anything...it's extremely frustrating because my entire life I've had to deal with medical issues and I've always overcome them with doctors hesitating and now I can't overcome even the latter in my dorm bunk. My whole life people have told me how intelligent I am (I usually don't talk about
this because it's just something you don't say idk) and how I could learn anything and apply it...now I can't go to any of my classes (there is no way to make the work up) and the stress of that is frustrating, depressioning and for me at least, out right humiliating. I love everyone of my classes and enjoy the work but I'm physically incapacitated and now these people are trying to discredit everything I've ever stood for in terms of getting over health obstacles.
I know what physical pain feels like, I've been in the hospital God know enough (though not as much as allot of people on here) and I would trade those times in for a cleaner bill of health NOW. I know what stress can mimic in the body and I can say I would rather be sent to hell like this than wish this on ANYONE or continue like this. I can't escape the pain, it's like my body is cheating me. I just want an equal and fair shot at life when it matters most, if I had already been through college and post graduate school this would still suck but I wouldn't be stuck in limbo. Is this a reasonable feeling? I keep trying to explain this to people and I never get words back, just accusations and more guilt. I had severe bronchitis a few months ago and I called my doctor and explained this....she rushed me in and did all these tests, she was so urgent and I was so upset because the bronchitis was nothing to me, it was so minuscule I wanted to laugh, when she tried to give me a breathing treatment I said I would be fine and that I had bigger things to worry about
like pain hammering me. I wish I could have a video documenting my daily life to show these people, how can you see someone suffer and turn your cheek? How can you sleep at night knowing you didn't do everything necessary?
Post Edited (Medicalkid2) : 4/18/2012 8:38:52 AM (GMT-6)