I do not have a facebook account and it would not allow me to post this. If it can be copied and pasted, I would greatly appreciate it.
It is not necessary to know who I am...just that I am a person who suffers.
I have never responded or posted in any way on Facebook or any other social network (except a chronic pain site) and found this so compelling that I had to put my feelings onto virtual paper.
Chronic pain patients come in all shapes, sizes, colors, and socio-economic conditions. We don't plan to be hurt or to hurt. We want lives just like other people. We want to be able to care for our prescious children or to do simple things like bake a cake for a child's birthday party, but often we can't. The pain is too great. It does not matter the reason for the pain. It is there and it is unrelenting.
Pain is something that is very personal to me. I do not wear my handicaped sticker as a badge of honor. I am ashamed to need the medications that I do. I cry tears of PAIN and I undergo extremely painful procedures to find some kind of relief, if there is success. Pain meds are not the first level of treatment. They are often the last. But, they do give me some relief. Pain is NEVER gone....it lurks just below the the tollerable edge and if you "forget" to take your meds on the schedule your doctor has set for you, it will take over and control every aspect of your life.
If you are in true pain, you cannot drive, you cannot think...except about getting relief, you cannot concentrate on anyone or anything...except reducing the pain. Is is really right to expect people to live like this? Should people have to suffer when suffering can be reduced even slightly by one very inexpensive medication?
I do not think that we should just give out meds to anyone who wants them. I do believe in X-Rays, MRI's, surgeries, and whatever procedures may help....but do not take away the only thing that allows me to have a life. I'm not a "junkie"... I'm not a drug dealer... I'm a real person, with real pain and a real family who needs a mother. We are a two parent home. Both parents worked very long and very hard for over 20 years, but I was hurt. It happened. It was beyond my control. Should I be punished because someone "thinks" they know better than I how badly I suffer? That is a personal medical matter...between me and my Doctors. It is not for someone else to decide. Most of those wanting to make that decision only turn their heads when they see someone like me shuffling by them in a store or they curse me when I don't walk fast enough or laugh when I start sweating profusely from the pain. They don't look into you eyes for that would make them see into the soul.....and that is something the do not want to see.