I am sorry to hear about
all of your pain, both physical and mental. I am also dealing with CP and depression. I know that it is a terribly difficult journey for me, with only two of the issues you're dealing with.
I hope you find that CP family helpful and supportive, as I have.
I think you need to do something about
finding a new pain management clinic, I'm not sure how it works there in Canada but you need one that is no interested in helping you.
I want to add on to something Tina said about
the medication making you drowsy. I am currently on Fentanyl patches and have extreme exhaustion. I have to nap or rest during the day to function and care for my son. I have issues with passing out when I'm inactive and also get very dopey if I try to stay awake. But it helps enough to the point that it is mostly worth it.
I really hope that you can get your situation, including the one with your father, more stable. I truly hope that in you're weakened state, he is not physically abusing you as that will make things worse.
Let any of us know if you have any more questions.
EDIT: Spelling error!
Kathryn - 22 years old.
Mommy to Baby Scott - May 18th, 2011.
Accidents: Jan. and Oct. 2008, Nov. 2009.
Surgeries: Eye - 1995, Lumbar Laminectomy L4-5 - Feb. 2008, Cesarean Section - May 2011 and Gallbladder Removal - June 2011.
Current Medication: Generic Fentanyl 50 mcg/h patch every 72 hours (feels ineffective after 48), Meloxicam 15mg once a day and Generic Tylenol for breakthrough.
Post Edited (gangsterkathryn) : 6/3/2012 3:12:04 PM (GMT-6)