emotional melt downs due to pain

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   Posted 6/14/2012 7:48 AM (GMT -6)   
My diagnosis is BipolarII , PTSD, Anxiety , Osteoarthrits,Fibromyaglia, and Dengerative Disc Disease which a recent MRI stated I have bulging disc in the lumbar spine and L5 S1 has a very large herniated disc with a displaced nerve root. I have been going to a pain clinic and getting some results there.If I don't get total results that pain clinic doctor said I may need surgery.  I had a Medial Branch Block yesterday with sucess so now the Nerve Ablation is the next step. I felt relief in my back from the medication, but I had a lot of  leg pain. I was in a crying mood and felt I  couldn't go on any more with this pain any more. On Monday of this week , I had a bad fibro flare. It took my the next day to recover from that. I am wonder what others do when thay feel thay no longer can  go on any more? Is thia common? I know I am feeling depressed this week but I need to watch it to see if I am depressed from the situation or if my Bipolar is coming into play here. I have been stable with that that for 8 months now . I hate to see that change.So I need to know how may of you have total melt downs over pain and feel you some times just can't go on any longer.

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   Posted 6/14/2012 8:17 AM (GMT -6)   
I sure have but I suffer from depression. However it got very very bad about a month ago. I was just not seeing an end to my pain and felt very low. I talked to my doc about it (and burst into tears embarrassing myself even more) and she upped my meds. So that's a bit better. At least I've stopped crying.

I think everyone with chronic pain has times they feel they can't go on. Chronic pain is awful. Not only are you in terrible pain, people give you a hard time about it often. It's just an all around bad situation and of course you get depressed.

When I'm feeling really low I like to come on here and read the posts and help those who I can help. It makes me feel a bit better if I can ease someone's mind just a bit. I've also vented on here about my pain and that helps too.

I hope things get better for you soon. It sounds like you need surgery to me but I'm no doctor. When I first went to the doctor about my ruptured disk at L5-S1 he took one look at my MRI and put me right in for surgery. Do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars lol.

I hope you feel better soon and I hope you keep coming here to talk because it helps a lot :)
Chronic pain, Depression, Fibromyalgia, Tennis Elbow (both arms), Arthritis (knees and fingers), Diabetes. Ruptured disk L-4, Severe degenerative damage L5-S1, ACDF C6-C7

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   Posted 6/14/2012 8:35 AM (GMT -6)   
I have no experience with bi polar but I have to say that pain has driven me to despair and tears on many many occasions. I had a disc problem at that area nearly two years ago which eventually required surgery. I was bedridden with pain often and thought I would drown in tears sometimes. I think pain and emotions go hand in hand. You are livng with so much, I think the tears and even the worry about possible surgery would make most people very down. Don't be hard on yourself, accept that this is normal for most people.
As I said my knowledge of bi polar is limited, but if I were you I would talk to someone if only for reassurance. Do you have a mental health nurse you could phone or even your family doctor. If it is your bi polar then it's best to deal with it now before it gets any worse. It's good you are aware and looking out for changes. I honestly think what you are feeling is not abnormal, I know that I was a mess before my back surgery. Funnily enough I am due to have more back surgery on the 27th June but I am not so bad this time, still a bit low and tearful but coping better. Sometimes it all gets too much even for very strong people.
Take care and keep posting, it's good to let your feelings out. Let us know how you go.
Best wishes

White Beard
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   Posted 6/14/2012 9:56 AM (GMT -6)   
Your not alone Milly and your not abnormal, chronic pain is terrible and it can take a toll on a person! I have problems all through my back, I have had three surgeries on my cervical spine in my neck, I have many bad thoracic disk and one that ist herniated and torn at T12, they will not do surgery on it ,(they say surgery on thoracic disk is much to dangerous and they will only do it, if paralysis is involved) that one ended my nursing career and put me on disablility, and in the hands of a spinal pain management doctor. I  also have lower back pain and I see a neurosurgeon the 19th of this month, to see about having surgery at L-3-4 area. My surgeon here at home thinks I need it, but I don't want to have it done here, it is no fun having back surgery when your alone so I am seeing a surgeon down in Kentucky so I can be near my sister and her family. .
The reason I am telling this, is to let you know you are not alone, or abnormal, or anything, and me like everyone else here, know what your going through and can and do understand! As I said in your other thread, you are not alone when your here on this forum!

Good luck to you Milly

White Beard

Post Edited (White Beard) : 6/14/2012 9:01:39 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 6/14/2012 1:18 PM (GMT -6)   


     Hello Cathy!..and Welcome!....It is best for you to start your own thread unless you have something to offer the member who started this post.

  Please repost your question on a new thread, and I'm sure the members will support you with answers. You will get a much greater exposure to all members by doing so. Good Luck! wink  


    SE wink

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Post Edited (Screaming Eagle) : 6/14/2012 12:22:13 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 6/14/2012 7:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for all your support. I am feeling a bit better. i have been going through these waves of feeling like I can't go on like this. I don't mean I am suicidal or any thing like that but that I am in so much pain. I often break down in pain. I have the break thru pain. Thanks again for the support. It is great to know I am not alone with this battle.

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   Posted 6/17/2012 12:51 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Milly,

I can relate to pain where you want to crawl in a cave and never come out. I either have Carpel Tunnel Syndrome or Arthritis they dont know yet. That alone fustrates me. Its in my hands and middle fingers and beleive me I want to just die at times. I see a therapist thank goodness cause I suffer from Ulcerative Colitis as well.
Healingwell has kept me going. We are all here to help each other :-)
Please feel better soon.


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   Posted 6/17/2012 7:07 AM (GMT -6)   

I know how you are feeling, as well. I am constantly fighting off emotional breakdowns of a serious nature. During the baby's nap time, I literally cried the entire time to my boyfriend. Big, giant, snotty sobs about how bad my depression is getting and how much it is growing everyday.

It is very hard. With the pain, we feel useless and immobile. We all feel the same and I surely hope we can all get to a state of no to low pain one day. It is very rough.

Take care,
Kathryn - 22 years old.
Mommy to Baby Scott - May 18th, 2011.

Accidents: Jan. and Oct. 2008, Nov. 2009.
Surgeries: Eye - 1995, Lumbar Laminectomy L4-5 - Feb. 2008, Cesarean Section - May 2011 and Gallbladder Removal - June 2011.
Current Medication: Generic Fentanyl 50 mcg/h patch every 72 hours (feels ineffective after 48), Meloxicam 15mg once a day and Generic Tylenol for breakthrough.
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