Hi and Welcome,
I am glad you found HW for support. You may certainly vent any time! That's what we are here for...to provide support.
Many, many of us understand back pain and all the pain that develops from the results of a poor back. It's like the back pain breaks us down and, even if you get the pain of the "back" under control, then you face the pain of the other parts that have been damaged because of the back. Things like the feet, the arms, the shoulders, the feet the legs, the buttocks, you name it. Most of us have this and we understand.
I don't always check the board and I don't always post anymore, but I do check in once in a while and I could see you needed help and understanding. I cannot give the help, but I can give the understanding.
I don't know your pain meds exactly, but I do know that it took me a very long time to get mine under control and even they don't work as well as they should from time to time. It was the same way with the procedures. After my "bad" fusion and additional herniations/other issues, I didn't think I could live with the pain. Finally I found a phychiatrist that understood and he helped. Then I found a PM who would give me meds (not enough, but some) and he'd do procedures....like RFA and trigger point injections. Then he started to trust me and upped my meds. I still take the meds, take the drug tests, do the procedures as often as possible and whatever else they recommend (short of implantation of a stimulator) and I have a life. It's not the life I thought I would have, but it is my life and I'm OK with that now.
Don't give up. Things will get better. You will find answers and hopefully better medication/procedures to help relieve your pain.
I wish you all the luck my friend.
Failed TLIF L5-S1, Miltiple Bulges/Herniations, Scoliosis, Pituatary Disorder, Fibro, Failed Bladder Surgery, Failed Nissen, GERD, OCPD, GAD, MDD, CFS, TMJ, Migraines, HBP, Idiopatic Reactive Hypoglycemia w/Diabetic reaction to HGH, Bi-lateral CTS (now trigger finger), Edema, Tarsal Tunnel Syndrome, Peripheral Neuropathy, Plantar Fascitis, Tibular Tendonitis, Adult Onset Flat Feet, & Vision Issues