I also have great respect for you and the caring, compassion in you responses to others. I have been blessed in that I have aweird opposite reation to narcotis. When I take them I am stimulated. That said I have noticed that I don't get the hyper reaction I used to. I stll get the energy and alert
ness, but not the burst of energy I used to. The reason for that share moment (lol) is thatyou may also have had the energy drop over the years.
I always trust the advice you give, and hope you will trust your own feelings. Kind of like advice to yourself
I'm sorry you are feeling blue, but know you always did what you thought was right at the time. Hindsight is always 20/20.
Going forward you will continue to do what you think is right and make adjustments as you see fit. That's all an one can do.:)
I hope each day is better than the day before!