I feel so ignorant, ill-educated, and quite ill-informed.
I first heard the word Methadone maybe 20 or 30 years ago, (if it's been around that long?) but knew nothing about it (and evidently, I still don't). The only "press" it got (and perhaps it was presented in a propaganda type way), was exclusively, that it's "only purpose" was to treat heroin addicts. Any ads or commercials I saw never explained why, or how, or ever went into depth.
But they showed on the TV people lining up outside daily for their "orange beverage."
As a lay-person, the way it was explained to the viewing audience was that this was the only way for these heroin addicts to stay off the drug...that part of the way it worked was taking away the "high" they felt, and it was legal. But these clinics required daily visits.
I was also given to believe that part of the way it worked was as some type of antagonist against "IF" the patient slipped and used heroin, they'd die. It was the fear of death, and the exclusive and only hope of this "orange drink" handed out in plastic cups daily,...and the fear of God put upon them.
Even when I was accidentally given two methadone tablets by a nurse in my last Rehab stay after my hip replacement, (and while I give her HUGE kudos for addressing it immediately, directly to me, explaining what happened, accepting responsibility, and that she was immediately reporting her error,....she didn't deny it or try to hide it or downplay it,...she shared the act with her fellow nurses, hopefully so they would in turn be more careful).
And I know this created a permanent mark on her record. And I know she didn't have to elaborate as she did or as swiftly as she did, or even in person.
That being said, she told me that "in my situation," the methadone she accidentally gave me would not harm me or interact with my pages of medications,...and from that point, everything was constantly double checked.
That's when my Husband hit the roof, and made it quite clear how angry he was, because as he explained, if I didn't happen to be opiate tolerant when that mistake was made, the results could have been deadly.
I knew/know nothing about its use for actual pain control! I was always led to believe how safe it was (to use it, and to d/c its use). Not one single professional ever corrected my preconceived and incorrect assumptions.
This blows my mind along with the multitude of other real (or accidental) mishaps that are kept from patients, or directly lied to about.
This forum has educated me more than the multitude of doctors I've seen over the decades.
Vickie, I've grown to care so much about you, and I wish you the best, I wish you strength and peace, and swift transition!!
Always a friend,