Feeling down, I would never have gotten this posterior surgery if I had known the pain on the other side was going to be so brutal.
I keep waking up, after a short sleep, in agony. With prior surgeries, I have had my pain controlled enough so that I could sleep. It was never controlled well while in the hospital, and it's not being controlled now. I suppose it would be much much worse if I wasn't taking these meds, but dang, it hurts.
Had a good cry this morning, and my pain was still the same, but I felt better emotionally. This just sucks...
If it weren't for my strong faith, I don't know how I could still be here. I am praying. And praying. And praying.
I am so very thankful that my surgeon calls this a success, and not a failure....there has to be a fork in the road I'm on currently, and the fork I want to pursue is the one where relief is hiding. If I could just find it.. (This is how I see this situation in my imagination. I'm actually searching for pain to go away). Thank you all, for your support
Post Edited (poplargrove) : 9/1/2014 1:13:03 PM (GMT-6)