As to a clinical modality to provide an exogenous/external electrical impulse to maintain viability of your injuried ulnar nerve, there is no one single or specific modality that is superior to another.
What is essential is that the external impulse be of sufficient voltage/Hz (about
20-30 Hz) to elicit an actual muscle contraction of the downstream muscles. That is, you want to eleicit and see a visible muscle contraction (sustained tightening of the muscle and/or joint movement of the wrist/fingers). You can use a stylus point or standard electrodes to provide the stimulus. Personally, I preferred the stylus point for neuromuscular re-education as it allows for the stimulus to be applied along the length of the injuried nerve.
Your writings are palpable for the emotional distress that you are experiencing.
I also have had personal health hurdles that were life-affecting. Adapting and adjusting was a gradual process over time. An ebb and flow.
The perforation of my intestine was severe, akin to the unzipping of the zipper of a rain jacket. My abdominal/pelvic cavities became septic. My diaphragm was also intruded with leakage of fecal material into my pleural cavity. I was given a 5 % chance of survival and experienced a transformative near death experience. To wit: I did not want to return to earth from wherever it was that I was when I was imbetween Heaven and earth. I firmly believe that I was in the presence of God/Higher Power. It was immensely comforting and enveloping. I had no pain, as I had no body form. I wanted to stay. God/Higher Power had other plans for me . . . And, so, here I am.
As I gained conscious awareness in ICU, I had to come to terms with the ostomy pouch sharing space on my abdomen and an
open/gaping 14” surgical incision (no sutures, no staples) that was purposely left
open to heal by secondary intention. I knew that life would never be the same.
Mention the word “ileostomy” “colostomy” or “stoma” or “ostomy bag” and most people instinctively recoil with a sense of disgust. An ostomy comes associated as a dirty bag of poop dangling from one’s abdomen, something reserved to those who are decayed and elderly, a dark secret and something to be ashamed of. I had to become my own source of solace and compassion in learning to live with an ostomy.
Body image difficulties accompany many people with a new ostomy.
Let alone the pervasive presence of food and eating. Much of our social culture revolves around occasions hat include food and eating. My broad intestinal resection and resultant small intestine syndrome have limited my food options. Going out to a restaurant is no longer a source of camaraderie and relaxation for me, owing to digestive difficulties. My world has constricted, smaller and smaller.
All to say . . . I do empathize with your feelings of isolation and despondency. Life is not always fair.
Owing a companion pet has been my lifeline in reclaiming a resemblance of a life. Have you considered adopting a dog or cat? Adopting a rescue dog or cat from a shelter can be a source of immense love and connection. The question then becomes, who rescues who? Are you rescuing the pet to a better life? or is the rescues pet rescuing you from the depths of chronic loss of health and loneliness?
I have written on this forum about
my 16 year old tea-cup Maltese, Molly, and of the special bond between us. This little dog was the one constant that I could depend on. Mutual trust and respect. I have a new little heartbeat, Abby, who means the world to me.
The human-canine bond and human-feline bond is like no other.
A companion pet offers unconditional love. What you look like is indifferent to them. When I look into Anby’s eyes, she reflects total acceptance of me. Her spirit keeps me going.
Consider adopting a companion pet. A companion pet can offer much that human relationships lack. I am a better person for having a pet in my life. I consider Abby to be a genuine gift.
Sarge, I genuinely hope for you healing of body and an easing of the flood of emotions that you feel. I hope that you get to where you need to be.
Pituitary failure, wide-spread endocrine dysfunction
Mixed connective tissue disorder
Extensive intestinal perforation with sepsis, permanent ileostomy
Avascular necrosis of both hips and jaw
Receiving Palliative Care (care and comfort)
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