Posted 12/23/2018 3:54 PM (GMT -6)
I am sorry to hear that you are traversing yet another round of conflicting opinions from your physicians and the roller-coaster of emotions that disheartening invariably news brings.
In the final analysis . . . Comparing the nature of your injury and level of achieved recovery to someone else is likely not all that useful.
Your recovery will be yours.
I remember a particular case that I treated as a younger physical therapist. The case was one of a few that made a lasting impact in me. The patient was a woman of 30 years of age who was in her car at a drive-thu ATM at around 9:30 pm. She was victimized by a robbery with a single gun shot wound to her mid-torso. The bullet passed through, a clean entry and exit, without hitting any organs or major blood vessels. And yet, she was completely paralyzed from the level of T6 - as if her spinal cord had been severed. She was a T6 paraplegic and wheelchair bound.
It seemed all so random . . . So senseless . . . And her injury far more pervasive than would have been anticipated.
It was the pulsating waves of vibration caused by the penetrating bullet that damaged her spinal cord. The actual bullet coursed several inches away from her spine. The sheer energy dispersed by the bullet’s speed/velocity was sufficient to damage her spinal cord.
Injury to a nerve can be more than what is seen or visualized as physical or mechanical injury or trauma.
Wisdom once shared with me in helping to cope with disappointment and uncertainty in health came in the phrase, “Ride the wave. Just ride the wave. The direction of the current will always bring you back to the shore.”
Translation: Try not to fight what seems to be evident or is prevailing in the moment. Relinquish to the natural order and see where it takes you . . . “ride the wave. Ride the wave back to the shore.”
You do have preserved median and radial nerve function. That is to your betterment. You have no nerve pain, no ligament or tendon contractures. That is to your betterment and speaks well to your recovery to date.
Whether the native axons will be able to able to regenerate and rejoin the original end-plates and to what degree will be successful . . . Only God-Higher Power or whatever faith you look has full knowledge of our ultimate destiny. But know that you are here on this earth for a purpose, and your purpose now also include weaving this injury and recovery into your life’s plans. Everything has a reason. We may not know the reason initially. It may show at a later date or time. Continue to find your way. One day. Then another. New experiences in life and new opportunities will begin to present themselves to you, and the intensity of where you are now in relation to this injury will begin to morph and soften. Say to yourself, “I will be OK.”
We are here for you. Today. Tomorrow. And for successive tomorrows.