Posted 4/30/2017 1:03 PM (GMT -6)
I came on here as I had a lumbar discectomy the third one,unfortunately after a year I found my pain had become chronic,I was losing the use of my leg,I had to give up 5 jobs which I loved.
I remember going to the consultant and him saying I will always be fully medicated,never be allowed to do painting,gardening etc.
I said what surgery,he replied nothing,I asked if I could do anything to help myself,he said nothing.
I was very depressed last year,I cried so much,I have always been there for everyone,could solve there problems.They saw me made up looking nice,because you cant see nerve damadge they really could not understand,I couldn't keep up.
This year after 30 years my husband wants a divorce,I have had to go disabled which broke my heart,have know idea where I'm going to live,my lovely house I painted landscaped designed it,will be sold.
I fell down the stairs a few weeks ago onto my hip,even more pain,my doctor said it was probally my nerve damadge,My codeine crept up to 10 a day,tramadol,8, diazepam 3,Amptryplizine 2,gapapentin 1200
then my usual diabetic pills.
After 2 weeks I just wanted the pain to go,I was like a zombie,being sick and the consert shakes scared me,I was hallucinating. I was also swigging Aramorph.
I always had loads of friends but because of my broken marriage and I couldn't do jobs for them,I was worthless,they say you know who your friends are,but I am so caring,it broke my heart.
2 weeks ago I wrote my doctor a letter pleading to get a physio appointment,I was advised last August by a pain manadgement in London,I asked for help,a counsellor etc.
She phoned at 6pm a week later she was going away,she said a physio will be requested and the symptons was abuse of medication,do a spreadsheet and cut down,just like that,see you in 2 weeks.
well this Monday I joined this site and was so ill,went down to 3 Tramadol,5 codeine,1 amytryplizine,1 diazepam,no aramorph,all diabatese.
I cried for days the pain everywhere,my friend said she would help me with a spreadsheet but let me down,I phoned my only friend I couldn't go on.She went through my medication I had forgotten all my gapapentin.for five days.My main medication.
This can even happen to the most organised person which is usually me.I have started my gapapentin,I now know this at least helped with my nerve damadge pain.
They don't give you any guidance to help you.its like you are sinking and have know support to save you,I know lots of you are going through so much,I wish there is a cure for you,or something which relieves your pain.
This is a new computer so I'm pretty lost how to work this and go through this site,I lost my original message,plus was going to answer someone.Apolagies.
Thankyou for reading.