I don't want this life anymore

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Date Joined Nov 2017
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   Posted 12/12/2017 12:29 AM (GMT -6)   
I am fairly new to this forum.

I'm in my early 40's been dealing with pain since the age of 29

I've got back problems -DDD, Herniated disks and had surgery, stenosis, lumbar facet disease etc
ALSO: Diabetic Neuropothy, THE PAIN AND TINGLES are awful. Feels like someone is electrocuting me.
ALSO: Mixed Chronic Headache Syndrome and Trigemial Neuralgia (facial pain)

and my share of mental illnesses.

I am medicated with pain medication and so forth.

I JUST CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS PAIN ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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   Posted 12/12/2017 9:51 AM (GMT -6)   
We have all been there many times, but somehow we just have to push on the best we can. If you feel you need to see your dr earlier then see if you can get your appt moved up. My husband has neuropathy too from diabetes. He says he doesn't have so much of the pain as the numbness. He has trouble holding things with his hands & his feet are numb. We have to really watch him because he has cut himself before & had no idea until he saw blood.

Hang in there.
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Date Joined Dec 2017
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   Posted 12/14/2017 11:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Hello just Mr me
It's a pain fighting with our physical and psychological issues and wanting to end it all is a quick fix believe me.Twenty years ago I was hurt in an industrial accident which damaged my c1 c2 c3 and trapezius muscles and headaches that lasted for 15 years.I still suffer 20 years later and can end it all with the meds I use for pain oxycodone and fentanyl patches all are prescribed by the way.You have to look at who will be hurt from your decision and my decision was simple I don't want to abandon my wife for my selfish decision.It takes a lot more balls to stay alive and fight this and believe me I'm 70% better most days and on a course to withdraw from the pain meds since all they do is mask the issues if that.The side effects is another rabbit hole you don't want to go down.
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It's a life saver since with dowsing you can access your sub concious for answers to your questions and thoughts.It's a great way to help your mind.I've been doing this for 4 years or less.Contact me or anyone else for that matter on dowsing

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   Posted 12/15/2017 12:45 AM (GMT -6)   
If you are suicidal. Go to the closest Emergency Room.

If your PCP will not prescribe enough pain medication to help manage your pain. You need to see a Pain Management Doctor. It is not realistic to expect to be pain free. Patients with severe chronic pain have to alter their life styles to help manage their pain.

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   Posted 12/21/2017 2:15 PM (GMT -6)   

So sorry that you have been dealing with this for so long.

I have been dealing with nerve damage in my head since high school. So perhaps I can empathize a little.

May I suggest, the unit that you lie on and tip back so you are upside down. You do get used to the blood rushing to you head, it actually does decrease headaches and makes your mind sharper

My back is wracked with arthritis, stretching out the tendons and vertabrae easy the pain considerable.

I wish you peace and strength
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DX: reverse Trigeminal Neuralgia;Cluster headaches; Atypical face pain;Hemicrania Continua; raynauds;complex PTSD; recurring MDD,disassociative disorder;

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   Posted 12/28/2017 4:05 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi JustMrme,

I just joined this forum today and your post was the first one I noticed.

I'm so sorry you are feeling that you can't take it anymore. I'm not sure if you are feeling suicidal, but if you are, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255 or go to your nearest emergency room.

Please know that you are not alone. I am also in my 40's and have had a debilitating chronic pain disorder since age 31. I too, have a mental illness as well. Physical & emotional pain certainly do take their toll on the psyche. It's good that you're venting on here instead of keeping your frustrations inside where they only serve to cause even more pain.

Do you have a psychologist and a pain management doc/clinic? What do you do for emotional self-care (hobbies, etc.)?

I hope you're having a better day today. Please keep us updated.

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