Posted 11/23/2019 7:23 AM (GMT -7)
Yep, your stress level is at an all time high! Employers & co-workers for the most part are healthy individuals. When someone goes out like you for surgery, the minute they return to work they are looked at as you are fine. You had surgery & it corrected the problem, not a thing wrong with you now. Hence, they raise the expectation bar.
Rather than beat yourself up over this try to get the stress level down. It's hard, I remember those days of working & every time I had to miss time, the stress of not being at the freaking job was much worse than whatever I was suffering with. That's sad but some of us are wired that way. I worked at a law office 20 years. I had a terrific boss. That place went through some divorces, partners leaving & that sort of thing. Sadly he ended up getting cancer & sold the practice. The job was extremely stressful but rewarding. Changing of the guard was proved to be a fatal mistake. The last 5 years I was there was toxic. I should have left when he did, but my loyalty to him is why I stayed. His name was on the building & on the letterhead. Without his name the place would not have lasted as long as it did.
Something else I will throw out, anesthesia tends make a lot of feel blue for awhile after surgery, in addition to the surgery itself. Add in worrying about returning to work & their expectations. The final blow is this buy out with another company. Will you be placed in a different position with the new owner?
My thoughts are simple, do something nice for yourself to lift up your spirit. Get a pedicure, meet a friend for lunch, go have your hair done, anything for some distraction. I reward myself once a month, I go for a pedicure, lol. I love it, I don't have the ability to bend to do my own plus it is relaxing for me. I have used the same lady for several years & I follow her when she moves to a new place. She works part time & she has quite a few loyal customers.