So due to pain I couldn't sleep last night, got up took some pain medication, had a snack (makes the meds kick in quicker for some reason), stayed up till 3am-ish, then went to bed.
Hubby gets up for work at 530am, and I was awake, unable to sleep due to pain still.
So finally around 7am I fall asleep. I had a dream that I was having
open back surgery done to me, while I was wide awake. The doctor in the dream kept doing that thing I hate "does this hurt"? "Does this hurt worse"? Everyone says your not supposed to feel anything in your sleep or something (at least those w/o chronic pain). It hurt so badly I can't even describe it. It was so real that upon waking up, I had to go check the scar on my back where they went in for the fusion to make sure that it was okay. I can still picture me in the dream getting up and looking in the mirror to see my back and this huge gaping wound being
open. This I have to say is the most "real" dream I've had on pain, ever. I have dreams all the time about
getting into car accidents, falling off cliffs and being stabbed in the back, stuff like that. Where my mind is finding a way to express the pain I'm in even sleeping. This one is just bugging me for some reason.
Anyways, not sure why shared this. Just venting I supposed.
"When we come to the edge of the light we know, and are about to step off into the darkness of the unknown, of one thing we can be sure; either God will provide something solid to stand on... or we will be taught to fly.'"
"Cause when push comes to shove You taste what you're made of, You might bend, till you break Cause its all you can take; On your knees you look up Decide you've had enough, You get mad you get strong Wipe your hands shake it off, Then you Stand" From "Stand" by Rascal Flatts
Dx.: Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Ulcerlative Colitis, Chronic Inflammation of the Colon, Ruptured & Fused L4-L5-S1 w/pinched nerves, Degenerative Disc Disease, Chronic Costochondritis, Back Muscle Spasms, Asthma, Benign Tremmors (hands)